(236) “Jesus Intervened Just Before They Died” with Shirley Smith

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I grabbed him by the shirt and I yanked him up in the bed

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and I said, listen to me, you are not going to die.

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Do you understand me?

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You are not dying until you're solely secure.

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I rebuke the spirit of death off of you

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and I call life back into your body.

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Yes.

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And I went, I said that?

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Wow.

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That was the Holy Spirit operating through you.

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It was.

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And he lived several years longer after that.

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Wow.

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God promises in Joel 2, 28 to pour out his spirit

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on all humanity.

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Welcome to Global Outpouring,

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where we contend for that promise outpouring,

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we equip for that outpouring

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so that we may engage in that very outpouring.

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I'm Philip Bus.

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And I'm Sharon Bus.

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Welcome to the podcast today.

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You know, I think all of us probably have loved ones

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that we have labored in prayer for and we've wondered,

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are they going to make it to heaven?

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Are they going to make it?

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And we pray and we pray.

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And sometimes it's just until the last minute

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or a short time before they go home

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that they actually welcome Jesus into their hearts.

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So we have with us today, our beloved friend, Shirley Smith,

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and she is going to share with us some of her experiences

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as a nurse and just as a daughter and a loved one

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of people that have had experiences with Jesus

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just before they died and they made it into the kingdom.

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And this will just build your faith.

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We're so happy that you've joined us today.

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Thank you so much.

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In fact, I'm not even asking for it now,

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but I would like for you to ask the Holy Spirit

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if he has something for you to do to help us out

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to make these podcasts possible.

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And I want to be sure to invite you to put it

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on your calendar and believe God with us

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for coming to Global Outpouring Convention 2025,

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May 21st through 24th, 2025

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at the St. Louis Airport Marriott Hotel.

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We have details on our website.

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Just look for the events tab and click on that

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and you'll see something about that

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and you can go and make reservations

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at the St. Louis Airport Marriott Hotel.

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The rate is $119 plus tax.

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The tax is terrible.

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I just get overwhelmed by the tax.

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It's over 19%.

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But you know, that's just the way it is at airport hotels.

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They can't help it.

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There's nothing they can do about it.

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But do come with us to this event.

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This will be a place for you to connect

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with people of like precious faith, worship together,

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pray together, we'll have great times of intercession

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and great times of going deep into the word

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and hearing things that God is doing in the world.

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It'll be about the nations.

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It'll be about getting your whole family,

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but it's a family camp.

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Bring your whole family.

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We've got a nursery for the babies

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and we've got children's meetings.

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We've got youth meetings so that everybody in the family

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is gonna have an experience with God.

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So make sure that you get with us on that event

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because it's going to be life changing for you.

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It's gonna be our 50th annual event.

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I can hardly believe that we've lived that long

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because we feel so young.

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So, but it's a milestone.

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It's like a jubilee.

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So come and participate with us.

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Shirley, thank you so much for joining us again

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on this episode of the Global Outpouring Podcast.

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You know, we've just recently lost one of our dear friends

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that was a mutual friend of both of us, Linda Hartzell,

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and we've been talking about the things

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that happen when people get close

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to passing over to the other side.

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Now, you're a nurse.

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You've been, I don't know how many years you spent

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in that field, but share some of the stories

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that you know of people that are getting ready

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to cross over so that people understand.

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This is another one of those experiences

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that builds your faith because you realize,

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oh, there really is something beyond now.

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Yeah, well, let me say this first.

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Many years ago, my father had another heart attack

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and his life was kind of on the line then.

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And hospice was coming in to take care of him.

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And he said to the RN that was over hospice

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that came to my house, he said,

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now, Ms. Smith, he said,

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if your dad starts talking about people

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that he knew real well that was close friends,

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if he starts talking to them or about them,

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he's seeing them.

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And I said, really?

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He said, yes, when they get this close to death like he is,

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they see on the other side.

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Yeah.

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And I said, oh, okay.

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Because he was talking about some people.

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But I stepped in because my father,

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his soul was not secure.

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Wow.

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And I said, we can't do it.

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We cannot.

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Shortly after that, he turned real dark

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and he didn't have any oxygen.

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And my mother kind of went hysterical.

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And I said, hey, you just go call the ambulance

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and let me take care of him.

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I was just gonna lift him up where he could breathe better.

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And that wasn't what I did.

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I grabbed him by the shirt and I yanked him up in the bed.

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And I said, listen to me, you are not going to die.

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Do you understand me?

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You are not dying until your soul is secure.

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I rebuke the spirit of death off of you.

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And I call life back into your body.

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Yes.

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And I went, I said that?

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Wow.

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That was the Holy Spirit operating through you.

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It was.

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And he lived several years longer after that.

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Wow.

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I was so shocked.

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I can't believe I said those words.

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Well, you did.

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It wasn't me.

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It didn't.

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I mean, God used your mouth and your lips, but.

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Right.

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But I had prayed for so many years for his salvation.

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Yes.

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And anyway, just before he passed, years later,

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I always went to the hospital

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and stayed in the room with him when he went in.

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Because being a nurse, I didn't trust the rest of them.

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You know, I had to oversee everything.

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But this day, I went to lunch.

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The Cracker Barrel was right next door

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to Baptist Hospital where he was.

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And I went over there and I said,

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I'll be back in about 30, 45 minutes.

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So I left.

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Well, a friend, a family friend of ours

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who knew him real well, come to see him while I was gone.

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And the Lord sent him up there to pray with him for his soul.

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Good.

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And I didn't know any of this.

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So this is his story of what happened.

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So his name was Charlie Bird.

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So when I came back from eating

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and I walked, when I got to the door of the hospital room,

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my dad said, come here.

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He was always a real rough spoken person.

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Come here.

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And I said, what do you need?

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I thought he was gonna say, did you bring me something?

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Or do you know, you're two minutes late.

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He always was stickler on time.

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And I said, what do you need?

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He said, come here and shake my hand.

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I went, shake your hand?

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He said, yes, I'm a brand new man.

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I'm a new creation, praise the Lord.

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Yeah.

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Ooh.

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I about dropped my lunch.

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I said, what happened to you while I was gone?

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Yeah.

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He said, well, Charlie Bird come to see me

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and he prayed with me for salvation.

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And he said, I'm a brand new man.

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I'm a new creation.

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Glory to God.

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I was just, I can hardly process it.

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I'd prayed for so many years.

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So I talked to Charlie and here's what Charlie says.

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Now I don't understand it.

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I'm just gonna tell you what he saw.

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So Charlie comes in while I was gone to lunch

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and the Lord sent him especially to speak to my dad

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about his soul.

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So he kept trying to talk to my dad

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and the Lord would say, not now, not now.

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The nurse would leave the room and he'd jump up

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and hit the Lord and say, not now.

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And so anyway, so finally the Lord said, now's the time.

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So he said, I jumped up out of the chair

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and I stood in front of your dad and I said, Mr. Willard,

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I come here to talk to you and to pray for you.

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He said, you're 94 years old and you're in bad health

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and your time on earth is probably gonna be up pretty soon.

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We need to know that your soul is secure.

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May I pray with you for salvation?

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My dad said, yes.

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Wow.

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He said, I stood there in front of your dad

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and he disappeared out of the chair.

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Oh my goodness.

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And he said, I thought, I didn't see that.

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And he looked back, he said, there sat your dad.

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But it was just a silhouette of light around his body.

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Wow.

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Is all he could see.

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And then he said, I started to pray again

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and your dad took off, he was gone again.

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It happened four times.

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Wow.

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And finally the last time he was able to pray

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from my dad and my dad received the salvation.

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And my dad was extremely proud man.

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He would never raise his hand for nobody.

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But that was a total surrender.

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And he was raising both hands when I walked in.

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Wow.

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Glory to God.

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So it was an awesome, awesome experience.

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I don't understand it to today, I don't have to.

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But Charlie said, so Charlie went near when I got there

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and I said, well, where'd Charlie go?

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He said, I don't know, he left the room.

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So when I talked to Charlie later, he said,

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Charlie, I was so excited, I had a runaway.

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And I just went down the hallway and got in the bathroom

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and shouted my head off.

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He said, I never seen anything like that.

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Wow.

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So my dad was gloriously saved and transformed

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before he died three months later.

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And my dad had, and just being very open and honest,

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we were raised in Louisiana where prejudice was a big thing

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with the black families.

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So before he passed away, my mom had a lady that came in

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to clean house and help her in the kitchen.

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And she was a black lady.

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Her name was Helen.

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And my dad had changed so drastically.

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Really?

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That I was there one day when she was leaving

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and she walked around in a chair to get to the door

267
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and he said, hey, come here.

268
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He was still real rough spoken, you know.

269
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Hey, come here, Helen, come here.

270
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She said, Mr. Clovis, what you want?

271
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Come around here.

272
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So she walked around and he said,

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you didn't hug my neck before you left.

274
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Oh, wow.

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My mouth.

276
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Wow.

277
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That's God.

278
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That's a God thing.

279
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His countenance glowed.

280
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Thank you, Jesus.

281
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For three months before.

282
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And he was a very, very abusive man.

283
00:11:44,240 --> 00:11:45,080
Wow.

284
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All of my life.

285
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He brought my mom over and he said,

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Louise, come over here and stand in front of me, please.

287
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And everybody in the family, all the granddaughters

288
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and my sister and I were there.

289
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And he said, I didn't treat you right.

290
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And I want to apologize and ask you to forgive me.

291
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Wow.

292
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In front of everybody.

293
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In front of everybody.

294
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You knew that the pride was gone

295
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and he was a very proud man.

296
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My goodness.

297
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That was a God thing.

298
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Yes.

299
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Oh, thank you.

300
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It was a Holy Spirit.

301
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So that was such comfort to me.

302
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And it was so miraculous to see.

303
00:12:23,360 --> 00:12:25,920
And then, you know, my dad,

304
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he had a very painful childhood growing up.

305
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Very, very painful.

306
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And he was never a toucher.

307
00:12:32,840 --> 00:12:36,600
But when he was in his recliner before he passed,

308
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he'd tell me, he said, come here.

309
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Come here, sister.

310
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Come here and sit down.

311
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I said, what you want?

312
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Come hold my hand.

313
00:12:42,760 --> 00:12:43,920
Wow.

314
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Hold his hand.

315
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The very hand that used to slap you.

316
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Yeah.

317
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We were in shock.

318
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And so I'd give him my hand and he'd take it

319
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and he'd put it up to his face.

320
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Oh.

321
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He'd just pat my hand.

322
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He didn't kiss my hand,

323
00:13:00,800 --> 00:13:03,280
but he would just put it to his face.

324
00:13:03,280 --> 00:13:05,120
And everybody in the family he took turns,

325
00:13:05,120 --> 00:13:07,600
he was just apologizing.

326
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Wow.

327
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And connecting with everybody.

328
00:13:11,320 --> 00:13:13,000
Wow, what a work of God.

329
00:13:13,000 --> 00:13:14,920
Oh yes, it was beautiful.

330
00:13:14,920 --> 00:13:17,360
And we had cameras with flashes

331
00:13:17,360 --> 00:13:20,880
and we got lots of pictures of that homecoming.

332
00:13:20,880 --> 00:13:23,320
And my parents were night clubbers.

333
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Oh my.

334
00:13:24,160 --> 00:13:25,560
And they were great dancers.

335
00:13:25,560 --> 00:13:28,360
And so my sister brought, when she came in

336
00:13:28,360 --> 00:13:31,720
during that time, just before he was home going,

337
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she brought sentimental journey,

338
00:13:33,360 --> 00:13:34,880
which was their favorite song.

339
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Oh.

340
00:13:35,760 --> 00:13:37,000
And my mom was blind.

341
00:13:37,000 --> 00:13:39,800
She had glaucoma at that time.

342
00:13:39,800 --> 00:13:42,000
And macular degeneration too.

343
00:13:42,000 --> 00:13:43,640
And so he said to my mom,

344
00:13:43,640 --> 00:13:45,760
he said, Louise, come over here.

345
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And she went and he just grabbed her

346
00:13:48,920 --> 00:13:52,280
and they just waved back and forth to that song.

347
00:13:52,280 --> 00:13:53,720
Oh.

348
00:13:53,720 --> 00:13:56,200
And I looked at him and he's saying goodbye.

349
00:13:56,200 --> 00:13:57,640
Mm.

350
00:13:57,640 --> 00:13:58,720
He's saying goodbye.

351
00:13:58,720 --> 00:14:00,920
This is the last dance they'll have.

352
00:14:00,920 --> 00:14:01,880
Mm.

353
00:14:01,880 --> 00:14:05,160
It was so beautiful and we captured that on film.

354
00:14:05,160 --> 00:14:06,400
Oh sweet.

355
00:14:06,400 --> 00:14:08,560
So the Lord gave us such a beautiful,

356
00:14:08,560 --> 00:14:10,720
cause I stood in the gap and stood in the gap

357
00:14:10,720 --> 00:14:12,480
and stood in the gap for him.

358
00:14:12,480 --> 00:14:13,320
Right.

359
00:14:13,320 --> 00:14:15,000
And I've been with him for so many years

360
00:14:15,000 --> 00:14:17,920
cause my mom even attempted suicide at one time

361
00:14:17,920 --> 00:14:19,440
and had brain surgery.

362
00:14:19,440 --> 00:14:22,560
We had so much trauma in our home,

363
00:14:22,560 --> 00:14:25,120
but God did such healing.

364
00:14:25,120 --> 00:14:26,040
Thank you Jesus.

365
00:14:26,040 --> 00:14:27,560
Tremendous healing.

366
00:14:27,560 --> 00:14:30,400
Someday I'd like to do a podcast

367
00:14:30,400 --> 00:14:33,120
on how I dealt with mama at her death.

368
00:14:33,120 --> 00:14:33,960
Oh.

369
00:14:33,960 --> 00:14:34,800
Yeah.

370
00:14:34,800 --> 00:14:36,320
Well, why don't you go ahead and talk about it?

371
00:14:36,320 --> 00:14:40,280
Well, you know, there was so much abuse in the family.

372
00:14:40,280 --> 00:14:43,160
I cannot even begin to tell you the kind of abuse

373
00:14:43,160 --> 00:14:44,400
that she endured.

374
00:14:44,400 --> 00:14:46,960
I don't know how she lived through it.

375
00:14:46,960 --> 00:14:49,440
And it was not an occasional thing.

376
00:14:49,440 --> 00:14:53,200
It wasn't triggered by alcohol or nothing.

377
00:14:53,200 --> 00:14:56,040
Cause that was, alcohol was not a problem in our home.

378
00:14:56,040 --> 00:15:01,040
It was anger and temper and violence, violence, violence.

379
00:15:01,360 --> 00:15:06,360
And so the pain was so acute among all of us in the family.

380
00:15:07,600 --> 00:15:11,400
We all severed from the environment that we lived in.

381
00:15:11,400 --> 00:15:16,400
So my mom was blind and she had cancer.

382
00:15:16,760 --> 00:15:19,760
And so I went to stay with her.

383
00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:24,760
We had just built our house and James had already retired.

384
00:15:25,880 --> 00:15:27,880
So, you know, he, I didn't have to be there

385
00:15:27,880 --> 00:15:30,000
to fix food or anything.

386
00:15:30,000 --> 00:15:31,040
And he was so sweet.

387
00:15:31,040 --> 00:15:32,600
He loved my mother so much.

388
00:15:32,600 --> 00:15:35,760
And he was very willing for me to stay with her.

389
00:15:35,760 --> 00:15:37,720
And then he would relieve me on the weekends

390
00:15:37,720 --> 00:15:40,000
and he would stay with her at her house.

391
00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:40,840
And.

392
00:15:40,840 --> 00:15:42,320
This is after your dad passed.

393
00:15:42,320 --> 00:15:43,160
Yeah.

394
00:15:43,160 --> 00:15:45,040
This is after he passed, right?

395
00:15:45,040 --> 00:15:48,360
So my niece, she wanted the history of the family.

396
00:15:48,360 --> 00:15:53,360
She was going to do a diary on our family genealogy.

397
00:15:53,640 --> 00:15:55,720
And so she said, I need you to talk to grandma

398
00:15:55,720 --> 00:15:58,960
while you're there so I can know what to write.

399
00:15:58,960 --> 00:15:59,960
And I said, okay.

400
00:16:01,200 --> 00:16:02,880
I knew she didn't want to hear a lot

401
00:16:02,880 --> 00:16:04,440
of what was going to be said.

402
00:16:04,440 --> 00:16:06,720
So I was not going to include that.

403
00:16:06,720 --> 00:16:09,280
But so I started with my mother from the first time,

404
00:16:09,280 --> 00:16:11,320
from when she first got married.

405
00:16:11,320 --> 00:16:13,440
And there were so many years that she'd say,

406
00:16:13,440 --> 00:16:14,400
I can't go there.

407
00:16:14,400 --> 00:16:15,640
I can't.

408
00:16:15,640 --> 00:16:16,480
I can't go there.

409
00:16:16,480 --> 00:16:18,080
I said, okay, it's okay.

410
00:16:18,080 --> 00:16:19,240
Just forget that one.

411
00:16:19,240 --> 00:16:22,400
Go to some other, another year, another time,

412
00:16:22,400 --> 00:16:23,480
another place.

413
00:16:24,400 --> 00:16:26,760
And that happened many times.

414
00:16:26,760 --> 00:16:29,560
It was the memory of what all happened with her

415
00:16:30,560 --> 00:16:34,760
and to her was so painful she couldn't talk about it.

416
00:16:34,760 --> 00:16:37,520
So it took me two and a half to three months

417
00:16:37,520 --> 00:16:39,400
to dialogue with her.

418
00:16:39,400 --> 00:16:42,760
And so I knew everything.

419
00:16:42,760 --> 00:16:44,400
Of course, I was dealing with things

420
00:16:44,400 --> 00:16:46,560
I hadn't even heard to, you know?

421
00:16:46,560 --> 00:16:50,120
So I knew the history of everything.

422
00:16:50,120 --> 00:16:55,120
And so she got worse and we had to put her in the hospital

423
00:16:55,600 --> 00:16:59,520
and she fell and fractured her pelvic,

424
00:16:59,520 --> 00:17:02,600
which is a very painful thing to have.

425
00:17:02,600 --> 00:17:04,480
And cause I've nursed a lot of people

426
00:17:04,480 --> 00:17:07,320
that had fractured pelvics.

427
00:17:07,320 --> 00:17:11,360
And she was in the hospital and I was staying with her

428
00:17:11,360 --> 00:17:13,760
and I could see that she was getting weaker

429
00:17:13,760 --> 00:17:14,600
and weaker and weaker.

430
00:17:14,600 --> 00:17:17,760
And I could tell that her time was gonna soon be up.

431
00:17:17,760 --> 00:17:19,360
I was really praying for it to be

432
00:17:19,360 --> 00:17:23,440
because I think she has been in pain all of her life.

433
00:17:24,320 --> 00:17:28,360
So I don't want to see her end her life in pain.

434
00:17:28,360 --> 00:17:30,840
And so I went to the doctor and I said,

435
00:17:30,840 --> 00:17:33,440
you have to give her something stronger

436
00:17:33,440 --> 00:17:37,800
because I could hear her screaming all the way down the hallway

437
00:17:37,800 --> 00:17:39,280
from the pain of the pelvic

438
00:17:39,280 --> 00:17:40,920
whenever I got off the elevator.

439
00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:43,920
And I said, I can't take anymore and she can't either.

440
00:17:43,920 --> 00:17:46,480
And he said, well, I am trying to save lives

441
00:17:46,480 --> 00:17:47,320
and I take them.

442
00:17:47,320 --> 00:17:48,920
I said, well, you do something else then.

443
00:17:48,920 --> 00:17:50,640
You get somebody in here that can.

444
00:17:51,640 --> 00:17:54,080
And he said, well, I have to call hospice.

445
00:17:55,280 --> 00:17:56,640
They can come in.

446
00:17:56,640 --> 00:17:58,760
I said, well, get them on the phone.

447
00:17:58,760 --> 00:18:00,160
So he did.

448
00:18:00,160 --> 00:18:02,720
And they came and they gave her some meds

449
00:18:02,720 --> 00:18:07,120
because first time she got easy for five long days.

450
00:18:07,120 --> 00:18:11,240
She got easy and she wasn't screaming with pain anymore.

451
00:18:12,120 --> 00:18:13,080
And about two o'clock,

452
00:18:13,080 --> 00:18:16,360
because I never left the hospital hardly ever with her

453
00:18:16,360 --> 00:18:18,720
except to go downstairs to eat or something.

454
00:18:18,720 --> 00:18:20,600
And I went across the hallway

455
00:18:20,600 --> 00:18:22,000
because she began to rest.

456
00:18:22,000 --> 00:18:24,160
And I heard the death rattle in her throat

457
00:18:24,160 --> 00:18:25,760
and I knew that she was going.

458
00:18:25,760 --> 00:18:30,120
And so I went across the hallway and I said, God, I am mad.

459
00:18:30,120 --> 00:18:31,360
I am mad at you.

460
00:18:31,360 --> 00:18:34,440
I said, my mother has been such horrible, horrible pain.

461
00:18:34,440 --> 00:18:37,600
And you have done nothing, absolutely nothing

462
00:18:37,600 --> 00:18:39,960
to rid her of that.

463
00:18:39,960 --> 00:18:42,520
And that was kind of the way I started out praying.

464
00:18:42,520 --> 00:18:45,400
And so I just sat there for a minute

465
00:18:45,400 --> 00:18:50,400
and the Lord said, she has tied my hands.

466
00:18:50,400 --> 00:18:51,240
Oh.

467
00:18:51,240 --> 00:18:53,280
I said, how does she do that?

468
00:18:53,280 --> 00:18:55,560
He said, because she doesn't forgive.

469
00:18:55,560 --> 00:18:57,840
Oh, that's very serious.

470
00:18:57,840 --> 00:18:58,680
Yeah.

471
00:18:58,680 --> 00:19:01,480
Because if you don't forgive, you won't be forgiven.

472
00:19:01,480 --> 00:19:02,320
Exactly.

473
00:19:02,320 --> 00:19:05,720
I said, she can't, she's out of it

474
00:19:05,720 --> 00:19:07,600
and is will be until she passes.

475
00:19:07,600 --> 00:19:09,520
How can she forgive?

476
00:19:09,520 --> 00:19:11,440
How can she say anything?

477
00:19:11,440 --> 00:19:13,520
She's not even coherent.

478
00:19:13,520 --> 00:19:18,520
And he said, you can, you can stand in the gap.

479
00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:21,560
You can, I had dialogued with her for three months

480
00:19:21,560 --> 00:19:23,440
and I knew the whole history.

481
00:19:23,440 --> 00:19:24,280
Oh.

482
00:19:26,280 --> 00:19:28,480
And the Lord said, I'm going to kill you.

483
00:19:28,480 --> 00:19:31,360
And the Lord said, you can repent for her.

484
00:19:31,360 --> 00:19:32,440
Wow.

485
00:19:32,440 --> 00:19:35,160
I was so scared.

486
00:19:35,160 --> 00:19:36,000
Oh my.

487
00:19:36,000 --> 00:19:37,040
I said, give me scripture.

488
00:19:39,040 --> 00:19:41,480
Said, whoever sins you retain are retained.

489
00:19:41,480 --> 00:19:42,320
That's right.

490
00:19:42,320 --> 00:19:44,280
Those you forgive are forgiven.

491
00:19:44,280 --> 00:19:45,280
Beautiful.

492
00:19:45,280 --> 00:19:47,640
The Lord said, stand in the gap for her

493
00:19:47,640 --> 00:19:49,320
because she can't do it.

494
00:19:49,320 --> 00:19:51,240
Wow.

495
00:19:51,240 --> 00:19:55,720
So I spent about an hour and a half in prayer

496
00:19:55,720 --> 00:20:00,720
and just till I emptied out everything.

497
00:20:00,960 --> 00:20:03,600
They've been pent up in me and pent up in her.

498
00:20:03,600 --> 00:20:04,680
Wow.

499
00:20:04,680 --> 00:20:09,040
It was a healing for me as well as a deliverance.

500
00:20:09,880 --> 00:20:10,800
Beautiful.

501
00:20:10,800 --> 00:20:12,200
For her.

502
00:20:12,200 --> 00:20:13,680
Wow.

503
00:20:13,680 --> 00:20:16,800
And so I felt the whole thing lift

504
00:20:16,800 --> 00:20:20,360
and I knew the Lord said, now she's ready for her burial.

505
00:20:20,360 --> 00:20:21,200
Wow.

506
00:20:21,200 --> 00:20:22,280
Look at that.

507
00:20:22,280 --> 00:20:25,320
So I walked back across the hallway to her room

508
00:20:25,320 --> 00:20:28,880
and I said, mom, I don't know if you can hear me.

509
00:20:28,880 --> 00:20:31,720
I don't know if you can understand me,

510
00:20:31,720 --> 00:20:35,320
but I want you to know your soul is secure.

511
00:20:35,320 --> 00:20:36,160
Wow.

512
00:20:36,160 --> 00:20:39,120
I want you to know everything is okay.

513
00:20:39,120 --> 00:20:39,960
Thank you Jesus.

514
00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:42,720
That I have repented on behalf of you.

515
00:20:42,720 --> 00:20:46,480
I've stood in the gap and God has forgiven you.

516
00:20:46,480 --> 00:20:48,120
Wow.

517
00:20:48,120 --> 00:20:49,760
And the Lord said, now I know her for her.

518
00:20:49,760 --> 00:20:51,880
But I said, I don't have any oil.

519
00:20:51,880 --> 00:20:53,800
And I went looking around in the bathroom,

520
00:20:53,800 --> 00:20:55,040
there was some baby oil.

521
00:20:55,040 --> 00:20:57,520
I just went and got the baby oil.

522
00:20:57,520 --> 00:20:59,440
And I said, Lord, I said, mom,

523
00:20:59,440 --> 00:21:03,040
I'm going to anoint you with this baby oil for your burial

524
00:21:04,200 --> 00:21:07,400
because you're going to soon be in the arms of Jesus.

525
00:21:07,400 --> 00:21:08,440
Wow.

526
00:21:08,440 --> 00:21:10,800
And that was my closure with her.

527
00:21:10,800 --> 00:21:11,920
Wow.

528
00:21:11,920 --> 00:21:13,880
It was beautiful.

529
00:21:13,880 --> 00:21:16,360
It brought such healing to me.

530
00:21:16,360 --> 00:21:18,080
Yes.

531
00:21:18,080 --> 00:21:21,280
I had that pent up in me for so many years,

532
00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:24,040
years and years, all my life really,

533
00:21:24,040 --> 00:21:25,560
because there were times I would just,

534
00:21:25,560 --> 00:21:27,720
we would beg her to leave.

535
00:21:29,120 --> 00:21:31,360
And she was too scared to leave.

536
00:21:31,360 --> 00:21:32,240
Wow.

537
00:21:32,240 --> 00:21:35,400
And we'd say, my sister and I said, we'll get a job.

538
00:21:35,400 --> 00:21:38,680
You can work, we can work, we can make it.

539
00:21:38,680 --> 00:21:40,520
She said, no, he'll come after me.

540
00:21:42,360 --> 00:21:44,120
So we were stuck.

541
00:21:44,120 --> 00:21:45,280
Wow.

542
00:21:45,280 --> 00:21:47,000
But in the end, he repented.

543
00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:50,800
He repented and I repented for her.

544
00:21:50,800 --> 00:21:51,640
Wow.

545
00:21:51,640 --> 00:21:56,200
And that brings me up to where my husband passed last year.

546
00:21:56,200 --> 00:21:57,040
Okay.

547
00:21:57,040 --> 00:22:00,360
I was sitting up at the hospital with him.

548
00:22:00,360 --> 00:22:01,960
It's about two o'clock in the morning

549
00:22:01,960 --> 00:22:04,400
and I was asleep in a recliner next to his bed

550
00:22:04,400 --> 00:22:08,520
and he woke me up and he said, guess who I just saw?

551
00:22:08,520 --> 00:22:10,200
I said, I don't know.

552
00:22:10,200 --> 00:22:12,720
He said, I just saw my aunt

553
00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:15,200
and both of all of these people were passed.

554
00:22:15,200 --> 00:22:19,240
He said, I just saw my aunt and my uncle

555
00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:22,760
and I saw your mom and your dad

556
00:22:22,760 --> 00:22:25,880
and I saw my dad and James had led his dad

557
00:22:25,880 --> 00:22:27,560
to the Lord on his deathbed.

558
00:22:27,560 --> 00:22:28,400
Wow.

559
00:22:28,400 --> 00:22:29,240
Yeah.

560
00:22:29,240 --> 00:22:31,960
And his dad had had a stroke too.

561
00:22:31,960 --> 00:22:33,800
And he said, I saw all these people.

562
00:22:33,800 --> 00:22:36,640
He said, and who are all these people around my bed?

563
00:22:37,600 --> 00:22:39,920
I said, I'm not sure.

564
00:22:39,920 --> 00:22:41,600
I wasn't seeing anybody,

565
00:22:41,600 --> 00:22:43,720
but I didn't want to discourage him.

566
00:22:43,720 --> 00:22:44,560
Right.

567
00:22:44,560 --> 00:22:46,400
I said, I'm not sure who they are.

568
00:22:46,400 --> 00:22:47,680
That was a good answer.

569
00:22:47,680 --> 00:22:51,240
And he said, well, who is that man standing right there?

570
00:22:51,240 --> 00:22:54,320
I said, I don't really know him either.

571
00:22:54,320 --> 00:22:57,440
And he said, well, my aunt and uncle is telling me

572
00:22:57,440 --> 00:22:59,800
and these people are telling me to come on.

573
00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:01,800
Said, you see that door right there?

574
00:23:01,800 --> 00:23:04,120
They telling me I have to go through this door right here.

575
00:23:04,120 --> 00:23:05,880
And he said, sure, it's a big door.

576
00:23:05,880 --> 00:23:07,560
I said, but James, you're strong.

577
00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:09,720
You can, I know you can open the door.

578
00:23:09,720 --> 00:23:11,560
Wow.

579
00:23:11,560 --> 00:23:15,680
And he saw my parents and his aunt and uncle and his dad.

580
00:23:15,680 --> 00:23:18,120
They didn't mention his mom and I don't know

581
00:23:18,120 --> 00:23:20,240
where she was in this situation,

582
00:23:20,240 --> 00:23:24,040
but or if she was there and just wasn't on the scene or what,

583
00:23:24,040 --> 00:23:26,920
but she died years later.

584
00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:31,160
But anyway, he saw on the other side.

585
00:23:31,160 --> 00:23:34,680
Well, the day of James's funeral,

586
00:23:34,680 --> 00:23:37,320
and you all were there, you all attended that day.

587
00:23:37,320 --> 00:23:39,160
My sister failed that day.

588
00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:40,200
She was in rehab.

589
00:23:40,200 --> 00:23:42,400
She had a broke foot and she was in rehab

590
00:23:42,400 --> 00:23:46,200
and she had to go to the bathroom about 11 o'clock at night.

591
00:23:46,200 --> 00:23:47,960
She had to go to the bathroom.

592
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:51,360
And she asked them to, she put the light on to come

593
00:23:51,360 --> 00:23:52,680
and help her to go to the bathroom.

594
00:23:52,680 --> 00:23:56,600
And nobody came and nobody came and nobody came.

595
00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:58,800
And she said, well, I don't want to mess up the bed

596
00:23:58,800 --> 00:24:00,280
and mess up me.

597
00:24:00,280 --> 00:24:02,320
I'm just going to get up and go on my own.

598
00:24:03,320 --> 00:24:06,240
And of course she had the brace on her foot.

599
00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:10,080
And when you sit up, your blood pressure fluctuates.

600
00:24:10,080 --> 00:24:11,480
She does.

601
00:24:11,480 --> 00:24:14,960
So when she stood up, she fell from a standing position

602
00:24:14,960 --> 00:24:18,000
face down on concrete.

603
00:24:19,080 --> 00:24:23,040
And she laid there for an hour or a little more

604
00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:25,360
before anybody found her.

605
00:24:25,360 --> 00:24:26,680
Cause they didn't come.

606
00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:27,880
Oh no.

607
00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:29,160
Yeah.

608
00:24:29,160 --> 00:24:31,600
So this was the day of the funeral.

609
00:24:31,600 --> 00:24:33,320
Oh my.

610
00:24:33,320 --> 00:24:36,400
So she lasted about two weeks.

611
00:24:36,400 --> 00:24:37,720
Cause I've been sitting up with James

612
00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:40,080
and going back and forth for two months,

613
00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:41,880
little over two months.

614
00:24:41,880 --> 00:24:44,080
So I went home with my daughter

615
00:24:44,080 --> 00:24:47,360
and then I got the phone call that she had failed

616
00:24:47,360 --> 00:24:48,960
and she's not in good condition.

617
00:24:48,960 --> 00:24:49,840
She's had a brain bleed.

618
00:24:49,840 --> 00:24:52,800
If you want to see her before she passes, you need to come.

619
00:24:52,800 --> 00:24:55,760
So I turned around and called a plane and went to Texas.

620
00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:58,440
And let me just share this too,

621
00:24:58,440 --> 00:25:02,320
since I'm being very open and honest about everything.

622
00:25:02,320 --> 00:25:06,400
It was a great, great breach between my sister and I.

623
00:25:06,400 --> 00:25:09,640
I was highly favored of my father.

624
00:25:10,760 --> 00:25:11,960
And I was with him.

625
00:25:11,960 --> 00:25:13,720
I mean, I was a tomboy.

626
00:25:13,720 --> 00:25:14,560
Yeah.

627
00:25:14,560 --> 00:25:15,880
You were the son that he didn't have.

628
00:25:15,880 --> 00:25:17,080
Exactly.

629
00:25:17,080 --> 00:25:20,240
I went frog hunting, gator hunting, fishing.

630
00:25:20,240 --> 00:25:21,520
The stories of the gator hunting.

631
00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:25,520
We have to tell people to go back to get that episode

632
00:25:25,520 --> 00:25:26,800
where you talked about all that.

633
00:25:26,800 --> 00:25:27,640
Right.

634
00:25:27,640 --> 00:25:30,120
So we were always fishing.

635
00:25:30,120 --> 00:25:32,120
We'd fish the Gulf a lot

636
00:25:32,120 --> 00:25:33,920
because she didn't like to do things like that.

637
00:25:33,920 --> 00:25:36,160
She wanted to read a book like my mom did.

638
00:25:36,160 --> 00:25:38,360
She was a quiet, she was an inside person.

639
00:25:39,280 --> 00:25:40,680
That was boring to me.

640
00:25:40,680 --> 00:25:42,560
I was one wild blue yonder.

641
00:25:44,240 --> 00:25:45,560
That was training for you.

642
00:25:45,560 --> 00:25:46,400
It was.

643
00:25:46,400 --> 00:25:47,760
Where God would take you later.

644
00:25:47,760 --> 00:25:48,600
That's right.

645
00:25:48,600 --> 00:25:51,880
And so it put a breach between us.

646
00:25:52,760 --> 00:25:55,480
So that was never made right.

647
00:25:55,480 --> 00:25:56,320
Oh really?

648
00:25:57,760 --> 00:25:59,600
No, it was always underneath.

649
00:25:59,600 --> 00:26:02,800
She always had an anger toward me.

650
00:26:02,800 --> 00:26:05,480
It was always very critical of me.

651
00:26:05,480 --> 00:26:08,080
In our adulthood she was also.

652
00:26:08,080 --> 00:26:12,480
And so anyway, I just kind of smeared over and go on.

653
00:26:12,480 --> 00:26:15,000
And I'd been taking care of her the last couple of years

654
00:26:15,000 --> 00:26:17,840
when she was in recovery from heart condition

655
00:26:17,840 --> 00:26:21,520
and different things, another accident she had.

656
00:26:21,520 --> 00:26:25,520
So the first of January of last year,

657
00:26:25,520 --> 00:26:29,760
the Lord told me to tell my sister that I loved her.

658
00:26:29,760 --> 00:26:32,800
We had never exchanged those words in our life.

659
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:33,640
Oh my.

660
00:26:33,640 --> 00:26:35,520
Mm-mm, mm-mm.

661
00:26:35,520 --> 00:26:38,520
So he said, you all are to exchange this.

662
00:26:38,520 --> 00:26:41,000
So I told her what the, I said,

663
00:26:41,000 --> 00:26:44,400
you know, this is not gonna sound probably

664
00:26:44,400 --> 00:26:46,840
anything you wanna hear, but I said,

665
00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:48,520
this is what the Lord's been telling me

666
00:26:48,520 --> 00:26:51,640
and that we need to tell each other that we love each other.

667
00:26:51,640 --> 00:26:52,480
She went, hmm.

668
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:54,320
Okay.

669
00:26:55,960 --> 00:26:57,440
I went, okay.

670
00:26:57,440 --> 00:27:00,000
So that was step one, you know.

671
00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:02,520
And so when we would hang up the phone,

672
00:27:02,520 --> 00:27:04,760
we would just say, bye.

673
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,560
And that went on for two or three months

674
00:27:08,560 --> 00:27:12,480
and the Lord kept telling me and I still couldn't say it.

675
00:27:12,480 --> 00:27:13,320
Really?

676
00:27:13,320 --> 00:27:15,320
Mm-mm, could not.

677
00:27:15,320 --> 00:27:17,480
I don't know why, but I just could not.

678
00:27:17,480 --> 00:27:20,680
And she could not and we still didn't say it.

679
00:27:20,680 --> 00:27:24,480
So then I wrote her a letter and she wrote me back

680
00:27:24,480 --> 00:27:28,400
and I just put Shirley and she put Billy.

681
00:27:28,400 --> 00:27:31,800
We didn't say, love you, Billy, love you, Shirley.

682
00:27:31,800 --> 00:27:33,280
We just put our names.

683
00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:35,600
See you later, Billy.

684
00:27:35,600 --> 00:27:38,440
You know, still just would not come.

685
00:27:38,440 --> 00:27:39,520
Wow.

686
00:27:39,520 --> 00:27:40,360
Crazy.

687
00:27:41,240 --> 00:27:46,240
And so now that she's fallen and she's in the hospital,

688
00:27:46,440 --> 00:27:49,840
I turned and flew back to Fort Worth.

689
00:27:49,840 --> 00:27:53,120
So I went back and I stayed with her at the hospital

690
00:27:53,120 --> 00:27:55,160
and I thought, I need to say something.

691
00:27:55,160 --> 00:27:56,600
I need to tell her something.

692
00:27:57,560 --> 00:27:59,240
Well, she couldn't hear, she couldn't talk.

693
00:27:59,240 --> 00:28:02,040
By then she, I mean, she had a brain bleed

694
00:28:02,040 --> 00:28:05,000
and her memory, even her memory was not good.

695
00:28:05,000 --> 00:28:09,760
She knew who I was, but she couldn't talk, you know?

696
00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:12,600
And then she got a little better

697
00:28:12,600 --> 00:28:16,280
after three or four days and where she could,

698
00:28:16,280 --> 00:28:17,560
the words weren't clear,

699
00:28:17,560 --> 00:28:20,200
but she just tried to figure out what she was saying.

700
00:28:20,200 --> 00:28:24,400
And so I told my niece what the Lord had told me

701
00:28:24,400 --> 00:28:27,400
and I said we hadn't been able to do that.

702
00:28:27,400 --> 00:28:29,280
And she said, well Aunt Charlie, you know,

703
00:28:29,280 --> 00:28:30,800
she's not gonna make it.

704
00:28:30,800 --> 00:28:31,640
Wow.

705
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:33,360
And you need to do that.

706
00:28:33,360 --> 00:28:35,560
I went, I know, I know, I know.

707
00:28:36,680 --> 00:28:37,680
How long have I known?

708
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:38,560
Yeah.

709
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:42,080
So anyway, she kind of forced me and she said,

710
00:28:42,080 --> 00:28:44,960
Mom, Aunt Charlie has something to tell you.

711
00:28:44,960 --> 00:28:45,800
Mm-hmm.

712
00:28:47,600 --> 00:28:50,520
And you need to respond to her, she said.

713
00:28:50,520 --> 00:28:54,920
And so I went up to her bed and I said,

714
00:28:54,920 --> 00:28:57,720
Billy, I love you.

715
00:28:57,720 --> 00:29:01,240
There was not any feelings, it was just a word to me.

716
00:29:01,240 --> 00:29:02,920
And she just looked at me.

717
00:29:04,240 --> 00:29:06,480
And Ginger says, tell her again.

718
00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:09,160
I said, Billy, I love you.

719
00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:11,160
And she went.

720
00:29:11,160 --> 00:29:12,320
Oh my, she pulled back.

721
00:29:12,320 --> 00:29:15,720
Yeah, just looked and looked.

722
00:29:15,720 --> 00:29:17,240
I looked deep in my eyes,

723
00:29:17,240 --> 00:29:20,240
I could see she's trying to process.

724
00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:21,080
Yeah. Wow.

725
00:29:21,080 --> 00:29:22,480
What I'm saying.

726
00:29:22,480 --> 00:29:25,200
It was one of those moments in time.

727
00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:26,880
Wow. Really.

728
00:29:26,880 --> 00:29:31,280
So my niece said, Mom, you need to respond to her.

729
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:34,040
And she just kept looking at me.

730
00:29:34,040 --> 00:29:36,000
She said, tell her again.

731
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:40,800
And I said, Billy, I want you to know that I love you.

732
00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:43,680
She said, now Mom, respond to her.

733
00:29:44,640 --> 00:29:46,880
And she couldn't speak clearly, but she said,

734
00:29:46,880 --> 00:29:51,880
I love you.

735
00:29:54,280 --> 00:29:56,560
Glory to God.

736
00:29:56,560 --> 00:29:59,360
I don't know what it was,

737
00:29:59,360 --> 00:30:03,480
but there was a yoke on my shoulders,

738
00:30:03,480 --> 00:30:07,240
a heavy yoke as heavy as wood

739
00:30:07,240 --> 00:30:10,880
that I felt that just fell off of my shoulders.

740
00:30:10,880 --> 00:30:12,960
I did not even know it was there.

741
00:30:12,960 --> 00:30:14,600
Wow. Wow.

742
00:30:14,600 --> 00:30:16,440
And I don't even know what it was.

743
00:30:16,440 --> 00:30:18,800
I still don't know to this day,

744
00:30:18,800 --> 00:30:22,160
but I felt it fall off of my shoulders.

745
00:30:22,160 --> 00:30:24,000
Wow.

746
00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:26,920
And there was such a compassion.

747
00:30:26,920 --> 00:30:27,760
Wow.

748
00:30:27,760 --> 00:30:32,040
The whole thoughts toward her were so different.

749
00:30:32,040 --> 00:30:34,120
Glory to God.

750
00:30:34,120 --> 00:30:36,640
So God just did a beautiful healing.

751
00:30:36,640 --> 00:30:38,440
How amazing.

752
00:30:38,440 --> 00:30:40,640
I know. That's beautiful.

753
00:30:40,640 --> 00:30:45,640
So there was a chaplain there in the hospital

754
00:30:45,640 --> 00:30:49,240
and she didn't die until a couple of weeks later,

755
00:30:49,240 --> 00:30:51,600
but there was a chaplain in the hospital.

756
00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:54,840
And I wanted to tell him about some experiences,

757
00:30:54,840 --> 00:30:58,200
about what James had seen and all of this.

758
00:30:58,200 --> 00:31:00,920
And he said, I hear these stories every day,

759
00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:02,720
all day from people.

760
00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:03,920
Wow.

761
00:31:03,920 --> 00:31:05,120
I said, for real?

762
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:06,360
He said, yes.

763
00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:08,360
He told me a lot of beautiful stories

764
00:31:08,360 --> 00:31:11,640
he had heard very similar to mine.

765
00:31:11,640 --> 00:31:13,120
Wow.

766
00:31:13,120 --> 00:31:16,040
And I said, well, you know, this is a strange one

767
00:31:16,040 --> 00:31:18,640
and I don't know if you've ever heard anything like this.

768
00:31:18,640 --> 00:31:21,960
I said, but my husband's grandfather,

769
00:31:21,960 --> 00:31:26,760
just before he passed, I said his son-in-law was with him.

770
00:31:26,760 --> 00:31:31,760
And he said to his son-in-law, I'm getting ready to go.

771
00:31:32,160 --> 00:31:35,240
He said, look, do you see that boat coming over there?

772
00:31:35,240 --> 00:31:36,520
Wow.

773
00:31:36,520 --> 00:31:39,240
And he said, Papa, that's for your eyes.

774
00:31:39,240 --> 00:31:41,040
I don't see it.

775
00:31:41,040 --> 00:31:43,320
He said, look, oh, it's getting closer.

776
00:31:43,320 --> 00:31:46,560
Oh, he said, and Jesus is standing up.

777
00:31:46,560 --> 00:31:48,360
He's standing up in the boat.

778
00:31:48,360 --> 00:31:50,120
Wow.

779
00:31:50,120 --> 00:31:51,360
And I told that to this man.

780
00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:53,880
He said, I've heard that story several times.

781
00:31:53,880 --> 00:31:54,720
Wow.

782
00:31:56,000 --> 00:31:57,000
Glory to God.

783
00:31:57,000 --> 00:32:00,480
Yeah, I've heard that story several times.

784
00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:04,600
So our little educated minds

785
00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:07,080
can't comprehend the supernatural.

786
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:08,800
Right, right.

787
00:32:08,800 --> 00:32:13,120
It amazes me the kindness of the Lord

788
00:32:13,120 --> 00:32:18,120
to prepare people to get as far as they possibly can.

789
00:32:19,360 --> 00:32:22,120
I remember Mary-Lois Little telling the story

790
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:26,800
about how her dad was, he was a believer,

791
00:32:27,720 --> 00:32:29,640
but he wasn't very deep.

792
00:32:29,640 --> 00:32:32,800
And she was wanting to get him filled with the Holy Spirit

793
00:32:32,800 --> 00:32:34,120
and speaking in tongues.

794
00:32:35,000 --> 00:32:37,720
And she kind of nagged him, I think.

795
00:32:37,720 --> 00:32:38,920
I think that's the way to put it.

796
00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:40,760
Maybe that's too strong of a word.

797
00:32:40,760 --> 00:32:42,720
But she was really after him to try

798
00:32:42,720 --> 00:32:45,320
and get him into this place in God,

799
00:32:45,320 --> 00:32:47,640
because she had gotten into, and it's so wonderful,

800
00:32:47,640 --> 00:32:49,960
and dad, you need to come and do this.

801
00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:53,280
Well, finally the Lord said to her,

802
00:32:53,280 --> 00:32:55,800
he's gone as far as he can go.

803
00:32:55,800 --> 00:32:56,760
Leave him alone.

804
00:32:58,360 --> 00:33:01,080
Because he knows our limitations.

805
00:33:01,080 --> 00:33:03,400
He knows what we're capable of.

806
00:33:03,400 --> 00:33:06,600
He knows the choices that we've made through our lives

807
00:33:06,600 --> 00:33:09,040
that have affected how far we can go.

808
00:33:10,160 --> 00:33:14,040
But like your dad had been just rough all those years,

809
00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:15,600
94 years.

810
00:33:15,600 --> 00:33:18,760
Yes, and deeply wounded all those years.

811
00:33:18,760 --> 00:33:20,960
He was wounded and hurt people hurt people.

812
00:33:22,160 --> 00:33:25,280
So he was busy passing on the wounds to others

813
00:33:25,280 --> 00:33:28,840
all around him because misery loves company.

814
00:33:28,840 --> 00:33:30,920
But God is so kind.

815
00:33:30,920 --> 00:33:33,000
He's so kind.

816
00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:36,360
You know, the first thing that he says about himself

817
00:33:36,360 --> 00:33:38,640
on Mount Sinai with Moses,

818
00:33:38,640 --> 00:33:41,160
the first thing that he says about himself,

819
00:33:41,160 --> 00:33:43,320
first he roars his name twice.

820
00:33:43,320 --> 00:33:45,680
And then he says, I don't remember exactly

821
00:33:45,680 --> 00:33:49,480
how the verb is conjugated or how the word is in Hebrew.

822
00:33:49,480 --> 00:33:50,520
I'm not a Hebrew scholar.

823
00:33:50,520 --> 00:33:52,200
I'm a Hebrew scholar wannabe.

824
00:33:52,200 --> 00:33:56,720
But he uses the word, Raham, Rahamim,

825
00:33:56,720 --> 00:34:01,240
that has its root in the word Rahum.

826
00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:03,280
It means compassionate.

827
00:34:03,280 --> 00:34:06,720
And it has the same root word as the word womb.

828
00:34:06,720 --> 00:34:07,680
Wow.

829
00:34:07,680 --> 00:34:10,840
So it's like womb mercies.

830
00:34:10,840 --> 00:34:12,920
That's the first thing he says about himself

831
00:34:12,920 --> 00:34:15,960
is I have womb mercies for you.

832
00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:18,560
I'm going to take care of you

833
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:22,800
like a mother takes care of her baby,

834
00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,520
the child of her womb.

835
00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:28,160
You know, when you carry a child in your womb,

836
00:34:28,160 --> 00:34:31,440
there's something that happens to connect you

837
00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:34,040
to that person for all of your life.

838
00:34:34,040 --> 00:34:38,320
And recently I've been hearing that even that your DNA

839
00:34:38,320 --> 00:34:40,120
as the mother goes into that child.

840
00:34:40,120 --> 00:34:44,480
And it's not the same as the DNA of the formation.

841
00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:47,080
You know, God takes a piece of mama and a piece of daddy

842
00:34:47,080 --> 00:34:49,280
and puts them together and makes this baby.

843
00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:51,120
It's not that DNA.

844
00:34:51,120 --> 00:34:54,440
It's the mother's own DNA

845
00:34:54,440 --> 00:34:56,920
that is floating around in her body

846
00:34:56,920 --> 00:34:59,760
that goes into the child and the child's DNA

847
00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:03,280
comes into the mother and you can carry that all your life.

848
00:35:03,280 --> 00:35:04,120
Isn't that amazing?

849
00:35:04,120 --> 00:35:04,960
Yes.

850
00:35:04,960 --> 00:35:08,200
Okay, so that's what our father is doing.

851
00:35:08,200 --> 00:35:12,720
You know, he is, you know, when he made Adam,

852
00:35:12,720 --> 00:35:15,160
he made him in his own image.

853
00:35:15,160 --> 00:35:18,080
That was before he separated Eve out of Adam.

854
00:35:19,200 --> 00:35:23,880
So our father, he really has this mothering

855
00:35:23,880 --> 00:35:25,920
as well as fathering.

856
00:35:25,920 --> 00:35:30,920
So there's that soft, kind, compassionate,

857
00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:34,520
loving kindness and tender mercies that, I mean,

858
00:35:34,520 --> 00:35:37,200
he says all these wonderful things about himself

859
00:35:37,200 --> 00:35:40,440
and how much grace he has and how much mercy he has.

860
00:35:40,440 --> 00:35:43,400
He's describing himself to Moses

861
00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:45,640
when Moses said, show me your glory.

862
00:35:47,080 --> 00:35:49,160
This is his character.

863
00:35:49,160 --> 00:35:50,000
There's so much.

864
00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:51,040
It's almost like a solter.

865
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:52,560
Yeah, yeah.

866
00:35:52,560 --> 00:35:55,840
And he has a place in him for us.

867
00:35:55,840 --> 00:35:56,680
Yes.

868
00:35:56,680 --> 00:35:59,160
Each and every one of us, there's a spot in him

869
00:35:59,160 --> 00:36:02,640
that we belong and there's a spot in us that he belongs.

870
00:36:03,520 --> 00:36:07,280
We're not complete until that connection is made.

871
00:36:07,280 --> 00:36:10,400
And I think we have, we make choices all of our lives

872
00:36:10,400 --> 00:36:15,000
as to how much of that connection we're going to embrace.

873
00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:15,840
That's right.

874
00:36:15,840 --> 00:36:17,800
And how much we're gonna let him do the healings.

875
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:20,760
You've walked through lots and lots of healings

876
00:36:20,760 --> 00:36:21,580
in your life.

877
00:36:21,580 --> 00:36:24,200
You've told us several stories of those kinds of things.

878
00:36:24,200 --> 00:36:28,160
And I just love hearing the work of God,

879
00:36:28,160 --> 00:36:31,000
the accomplishments that he has done in you.

880
00:36:31,000 --> 00:36:32,640
And he's done in all of us.

881
00:36:32,640 --> 00:36:34,720
And the more we yield to him

882
00:36:34,720 --> 00:36:37,080
and allow him to do these things,

883
00:36:37,080 --> 00:36:40,040
these are things that he loves to do

884
00:36:40,040 --> 00:36:42,160
before he takes us home.

885
00:36:42,160 --> 00:36:43,840
Yes.

886
00:36:43,840 --> 00:36:46,480
I'm thinking about our friend Linda

887
00:36:46,480 --> 00:36:50,040
that we just held her service yesterday

888
00:36:50,040 --> 00:36:52,920
and we streamed the celebration of her life.

889
00:36:52,920 --> 00:36:56,600
And it was amazing to me to hear the stories

890
00:36:56,600 --> 00:37:00,840
that people were sharing about how much she loved the Lord,

891
00:37:00,840 --> 00:37:03,840
how much she was all about going to the nations.

892
00:37:03,840 --> 00:37:08,240
And then we kind of heard some of the flesh stuff,

893
00:37:08,240 --> 00:37:11,160
cause we all have flesh, we all have flesh flashes.

894
00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:13,720
But we heard about several of her flesh flashes

895
00:37:13,720 --> 00:37:15,840
and Phillip and I have experienced those things too.

896
00:37:15,840 --> 00:37:17,000
I mean, you work with people

897
00:37:17,000 --> 00:37:19,240
and you're gonna find those things happen.

898
00:37:19,240 --> 00:37:21,760
But you can only hide so long.

899
00:37:21,760 --> 00:37:24,320
You get under pressure, you get under pressure

900
00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:26,120
and you're gonna find out what's in you.

901
00:37:26,120 --> 00:37:27,440
Iron sharpens iron.

902
00:37:27,440 --> 00:37:29,320
Yes, iron sharpens iron.

903
00:37:29,320 --> 00:37:34,320
But I found it so amazing that after she had that stroke,

904
00:37:34,600 --> 00:37:35,880
we thought it was 10 years ago,

905
00:37:35,880 --> 00:37:37,560
but I've just put the numbers together.

906
00:37:37,560 --> 00:37:39,480
It was really nine years ago.

907
00:37:39,480 --> 00:37:43,480
She had this stroke and people were talking about

908
00:37:43,480 --> 00:37:47,080
how she changed after she had this stroke.

909
00:37:47,080 --> 00:37:51,480
Now, we don't think in terms of God giving a person a stroke.

910
00:37:51,480 --> 00:37:53,880
We always think that that's the devil that does that.

911
00:37:53,880 --> 00:37:56,880
But we know that God doesn't waste anything.

912
00:37:56,880 --> 00:38:00,440
And I like to look at the last verse of Romans 11,

913
00:38:00,440 --> 00:38:02,920
where it says from him and to him

914
00:38:02,920 --> 00:38:05,000
and through him are all things.

915
00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:06,720
There's a song on that.

916
00:38:06,720 --> 00:38:08,400
Yeah, yeah, yeah, we sing it.

917
00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:09,720
We sing it all the time.

918
00:38:09,720 --> 00:38:14,720
So my point is this, that this nine years,

919
00:38:16,120 --> 00:38:19,000
there were things that happened as a result of the stroke

920
00:38:19,000 --> 00:38:22,000
that impaired her in certain ways.

921
00:38:22,000 --> 00:38:24,960
But it was amazing to me how people talked about

922
00:38:24,960 --> 00:38:29,960
how she was sweeter and mellower as a result of this.

923
00:38:30,080 --> 00:38:33,480
And it's not like I'm saying that God causes these things,

924
00:38:33,480 --> 00:38:38,480
but he filters those things through him, through him

925
00:38:38,480 --> 00:38:43,480
in order to bring people into a place that's closer to him

926
00:38:44,520 --> 00:38:47,720
and a humbling, just like you did with your dad.

927
00:38:47,720 --> 00:38:51,040
He brought him into a place of humbling himself

928
00:38:51,040 --> 00:38:54,320
and letting go of the pride and apologizing

929
00:38:54,320 --> 00:38:58,600
and touching and speaking and holding your mom

930
00:38:58,600 --> 00:39:01,760
and things that he had never done before.

931
00:39:01,760 --> 00:39:04,000
And that was healing for her.

932
00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:06,040
But you had to go further than that

933
00:39:06,040 --> 00:39:10,000
because of the much trauma that he had caused.

934
00:39:10,000 --> 00:39:13,880
But I just, I wanna say thank you, Jesus.

935
00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:18,880
Thank you, Father, for the amazing things that you do

936
00:39:19,280 --> 00:39:21,920
to help us get as far as we can go.

937
00:39:23,360 --> 00:39:26,400
As far as we can go, as close as we can go,

938
00:39:26,400 --> 00:39:29,160
deal with as much stuff as we can deal with

939
00:39:29,160 --> 00:39:30,920
before we cross over.

940
00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:34,080
Because that bad stuff stays behind.

941
00:39:34,080 --> 00:39:36,440
I love what Dean Braxton says,

942
00:39:36,440 --> 00:39:39,280
talking about family in heaven.

943
00:39:39,280 --> 00:39:42,600
And he says, now you may think that you don't want to be

944
00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:44,160
with family in heaven because of the way

945
00:39:44,160 --> 00:39:45,600
they treat you here on earth.

946
00:39:45,600 --> 00:39:47,840
He said, but it's not like that there.

947
00:39:47,840 --> 00:39:49,800
None of that is there.

948
00:39:49,800 --> 00:39:53,680
Everything is right and you fit.

949
00:39:53,680 --> 00:39:54,920
There's no more rejection.

950
00:39:56,040 --> 00:40:01,040
And God is working in us to get us into that place on earth

951
00:40:01,640 --> 00:40:02,760
as it is in heaven.

952
00:40:04,160 --> 00:40:08,040
Just before COVID hit, Margaret and I was in,

953
00:40:08,040 --> 00:40:11,720
in Mindy, was in Ecuador.

954
00:40:11,720 --> 00:40:15,840
And we'd visit a gorgeous waterfall that day,

955
00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:17,520
a huge waterfall.

956
00:40:17,520 --> 00:40:21,760
And I heard music, like music coming out of that waterfall.

957
00:40:21,760 --> 00:40:23,600
And I was standing at the fence,

958
00:40:23,600 --> 00:40:25,280
because it's all fenced off.

959
00:40:25,280 --> 00:40:27,760
And I started talking to my dad.

960
00:40:28,640 --> 00:40:33,640
And I said, Dad, you would love to see this waterfall.

961
00:40:33,880 --> 00:40:35,400
Oh, if you was here, you'd be fishing.

962
00:40:35,400 --> 00:40:36,920
My dad was a great fisherman.

963
00:40:36,920 --> 00:40:38,840
You'd be fishing right down at the bottom.

964
00:40:38,840 --> 00:40:42,440
And this is so beautiful, so beautiful.

965
00:40:42,440 --> 00:40:44,080
So Margaret walks up, she says,

966
00:40:44,080 --> 00:40:45,680
are you talking to your daddy?

967
00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:47,680
And I said, yes, I am.

968
00:40:47,680 --> 00:40:50,120
He would love it here, just love it.

969
00:40:50,120 --> 00:40:50,960
Sweet.

970
00:40:50,960 --> 00:40:53,400
I wish he could seen this before he passed away.

971
00:40:54,240 --> 00:40:56,760
And so that's all I said.

972
00:40:56,760 --> 00:41:00,800
Well, that night we were all sleeping in the same room

973
00:41:00,800 --> 00:41:03,080
and I woke him up.

974
00:41:03,080 --> 00:41:07,800
I was crying and can't explain what that was.

975
00:41:07,800 --> 00:41:09,440
I don't know, it was just a visitation.

976
00:41:09,440 --> 00:41:11,240
It was a vision.

977
00:41:11,240 --> 00:41:13,160
It was not a dream.

978
00:41:13,160 --> 00:41:18,160
And I was sitting at the end of a trail on a bench

979
00:41:18,320 --> 00:41:22,320
and I looked down this pathway and I saw this man.

980
00:41:22,320 --> 00:41:25,840
And I went, hmm, about the size of my dad.

981
00:41:25,840 --> 00:41:26,720
Hmm.

982
00:41:26,720 --> 00:41:28,760
And he walked a little, got a little closer.

983
00:41:28,760 --> 00:41:32,440
And I said, he even walks like him.

984
00:41:32,440 --> 00:41:35,800
My dad had a gait that was, I followed all my life.

985
00:41:35,800 --> 00:41:38,560
You know, I knew very well how he walked.

986
00:41:38,560 --> 00:41:40,760
Well, he even walks like him.

987
00:41:40,760 --> 00:41:42,640
And he got a little closer, a little closer.

988
00:41:42,640 --> 00:41:45,960
And I went, he looks like him.

989
00:41:45,960 --> 00:41:51,040
God, is that my daddy?

990
00:41:51,040 --> 00:41:53,840
And about that time, he called my name.

991
00:41:55,320 --> 00:41:57,080
He called my name.

992
00:41:57,080 --> 00:42:00,520
And I ran down this pathway to him.

993
00:42:00,520 --> 00:42:03,080
He held his denim overalls like he always would.

994
00:42:03,080 --> 00:42:05,680
And I just grabbed a hold of him.

995
00:42:05,680 --> 00:42:07,760
And he was a young man.

996
00:42:07,760 --> 00:42:10,280
Yes, just like in heaven.

997
00:42:10,280 --> 00:42:13,880
Yeah, my father was a very, very handsome man

998
00:42:13,880 --> 00:42:15,840
that made a lot of problems.

999
00:42:15,840 --> 00:42:16,680
Oh.

1000
00:42:16,680 --> 00:42:18,440
But he was a very, very handsome man.

1001
00:42:18,440 --> 00:42:21,920
He had this long black eyelashes that curled up.

1002
00:42:21,920 --> 00:42:23,480
Why do men get them and women don't?

1003
00:42:23,480 --> 00:42:24,320
I don't know if you understand that.

1004
00:42:24,320 --> 00:42:27,080
I know it, and his black eyebrows.

1005
00:42:27,080 --> 00:42:30,440
He had this dimple in his chin and he was dark complexed

1006
00:42:30,440 --> 00:42:31,920
and he had black hair.

1007
00:42:31,920 --> 00:42:33,840
And he was built real nice.

1008
00:42:33,840 --> 00:42:37,440
And the women just went after him

1009
00:42:37,440 --> 00:42:39,240
because he was a very handsome man.

1010
00:42:40,280 --> 00:42:42,480
But he wasn't his age.

1011
00:42:42,480 --> 00:42:45,240
He was a real young man, like in his 30s.

1012
00:42:45,240 --> 00:42:46,560
Yeah, like in his 30s.

1013
00:42:46,560 --> 00:42:47,400
That's typical.

1014
00:42:47,400 --> 00:42:49,720
It was long, thick, long, curled up.

1015
00:42:49,720 --> 00:42:51,840
And my grandsons had those same kind.

1016
00:42:52,680 --> 00:42:55,160
And I was just shocked and I just hugged him

1017
00:42:55,160 --> 00:42:57,320
and held onto him and was crying.

1018
00:42:57,320 --> 00:42:58,880
I woke him all up.

1019
00:42:58,880 --> 00:43:00,720
So I said, they said, what's wrong?

1020
00:43:00,720 --> 00:43:01,560
What's wrong?

1021
00:43:01,560 --> 00:43:02,400
What's wrong?

1022
00:43:02,400 --> 00:43:03,880
I said, I just saw my daddy.

1023
00:43:03,880 --> 00:43:05,240
I just saw my daddy.

1024
00:43:05,240 --> 00:43:07,080
It was not a dream.

1025
00:43:07,080 --> 00:43:08,600
I was totally awake.

1026
00:43:09,560 --> 00:43:13,160
And I was gonna tell him he needed to see that waterfall.

1027
00:43:14,600 --> 00:43:17,040
But I was so overwhelmed with seeing him

1028
00:43:17,040 --> 00:43:19,320
that I forgot about the waterfall.

1029
00:43:20,720 --> 00:43:21,800
It was amazing.

1030
00:43:21,800 --> 00:43:22,920
Isn't that something?

1031
00:43:22,920 --> 00:43:24,560
Yes.

1032
00:43:24,560 --> 00:43:26,000
The veil is getting thinner.

1033
00:43:26,000 --> 00:43:27,280
That's what I said too.

1034
00:43:27,280 --> 00:43:28,760
The veil's getting thinner.

1035
00:43:28,760 --> 00:43:30,880
It was awesome.

1036
00:43:31,760 --> 00:43:34,840
And I think he's probably fishes in that waterfall.

1037
00:43:37,440 --> 00:43:39,680
Well, I just want to encourage our listeners

1038
00:43:39,680 --> 00:43:43,880
that heaven is closer than we think.

1039
00:43:43,880 --> 00:43:45,560
Yes.

1040
00:43:45,560 --> 00:43:47,720
Jesus is closer than we think.

1041
00:43:47,720 --> 00:43:50,440
And our loved ones are closer than we think.

1042
00:43:51,280 --> 00:43:53,960
And if you've lost a loved one recently,

1043
00:43:53,960 --> 00:43:58,120
the Lord wants you to know that he is there for you.

1044
00:43:58,120 --> 00:44:01,760
And your loved one is just not as far away

1045
00:44:01,760 --> 00:44:03,400
as you might think.

1046
00:44:03,400 --> 00:44:06,200
And God wants you to be comforted

1047
00:44:06,200 --> 00:44:10,880
that even as David said about the child of his love affair

1048
00:44:10,880 --> 00:44:11,720
with Bathsheba.

1049
00:44:11,720 --> 00:44:14,480
And when the child died, David said,

1050
00:44:14,480 --> 00:44:18,200
he can't come back to me, but I'll go to him.

1051
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:21,440
And our loved ones are in our future.

1052
00:44:21,440 --> 00:44:24,360
If they knew Jesus as their Lord and savior.

1053
00:44:24,360 --> 00:44:26,440
And we have all of eternity with them.

1054
00:44:26,440 --> 00:44:28,960
So in the grand scheme of things,

1055
00:44:28,960 --> 00:44:32,200
the way God sees things, it's a very, very short time

1056
00:44:32,200 --> 00:44:34,440
until we'll be reunited with them.

1057
00:44:34,440 --> 00:44:37,920
And we have all of eternity to do things together

1058
00:44:37,920 --> 00:44:40,240
that the Lord has ordained for us.

1059
00:44:40,240 --> 00:44:42,760
So I just want to encourage you that-

1060
00:44:42,760 --> 00:44:44,080
It's exciting.

1061
00:44:44,080 --> 00:44:45,280
Yes, it's exciting.

1062
00:44:45,280 --> 00:44:48,440
And the Lord wants you to be comforted.

1063
00:44:48,440 --> 00:44:52,160
I think we have maybe told this story before.

1064
00:44:52,160 --> 00:44:55,960
Pastor Tony Kemp was telling us in one of his messages

1065
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that there was a lady that had just lost her husband

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and they were very, very, very close.

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And one day the Lord allowed her to go into heaven

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and she saw him worshiping before the throne.

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And he sensed that she was there and he turned around

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and he gave her a hug, but it wasn't a husband and wife hug.

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It was more like a brother, sister hug.

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And then he smiled and then he turned around

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and went back to worshiping.

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And she came back and the Lord said,

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he has a new life and you need to get one too.

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Wow.

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So, you know, God has ways of helping us to make adjustments,

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but he's so kind to get us as far as we can get.

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He's just kind.

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And as people have these experiences

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when they get close to crossing over,

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it is one more sign to us of how real heaven is,

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how real the spirit realm is.

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And that all of this stuff that we've been talking about

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as Christians, as Bible believers,

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that it's the real thing.

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It's the real thing.

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Yes, amen.

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Amen.

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That's our comfort.

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Absolutely.

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That's our peace.

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Absolutely.

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Mine both got in.

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Amen, amen.

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That's my peace.

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Amen.

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Do you want to pray for people?

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Yeah.

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So Father, for those who are listening in

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and hearing us talk about supernatural things,

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Father, I ask that you just open their heart

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that they can receive this

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and not think it's just something we've made up.

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And Lord, it's so real.

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And Lord, the closer we get to you,

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the more we see things like this.

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Yes.

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And Lord, the way we get closer to you

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is just by allowing you to cleanse our heart.

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Yes.

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To cleanse our lives, to cleanse our minds.

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The more that we just come to you and say,

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God, I'm hurting, I'm wounded.

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I need you to help me.

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Show me where I'm wrong.

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Show me what I need to do to make a change.

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Yes.

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Tell me what I need to say.

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Yes.

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Tell me when to say it and who to say it to.

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Yes.

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We need to make reconciliation

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with the people that we have differences with.

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Not just for heaven.

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People, you need to know that we need it here now.

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If you have depression, oppression,

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use drugs for comfort,

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and you have a very unhappy life,

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it's mostly because we are on overload

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with hurts and wounds and bitterness and unforgiveness

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and doubt and unbelief.

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And the Bible has answers to all of that.

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Jesus is your healer.

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He's the one that will restore you back to health again.

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He's the one that can take that pain

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that throbs in your heart, in your mind,

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that what you think about when you go to bed at night

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or what you have nightmares about

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or what's on your mind constantly.

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And it may be just because you need to make it right

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with somebody and you're just hurting because you haven't.

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I'm asking you to just take a step of faith.

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Put your flesh under your feet

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and also don't have to be right about everything.

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You can be wrong just like everybody else.

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If you will humble yourself

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and allow the Lord to bring a healing

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or to even bring conviction in your heart,

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to go and make peace with someone that you have audit,

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that you both can live in peace.

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Amen.

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That's what my sister and I did at the last minute

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before she passed over.

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And I have a peace with her.

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Thank you, Father.

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And she had a peace with me and even saw my husband

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who had passed before her.

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She made it in.

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Thank you, Lord.

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We always had a little question, Lord.

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She lived a wild life.

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She had great woundings

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and she lived a life of rebellion for so long.

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But Lord, you brought her in at the last minute

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and I thank you for it.

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She received you six weeks before she passed.

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Thank you, God, that you were faithful to answer my prayers.

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Yes, Lord, thank you, thank you, thank you.

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And so Father, I just thank you

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for the peace that she had,

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for the security that she had,

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and for the peace and security that I have, Lord.

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Thank you, Father.

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You can have the same experience

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if you'll make things right

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with whoever you have a difference with.

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Thank you, Lord.

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And so we just pray and suggest.

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Great grace.

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Just step out and try that.

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Yes.

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And see what happens.

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Yes.

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Yes.

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In Jesus' name.

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Amen.

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Amen.

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