Praise Set Me Free, Patricia Hefti's Story

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King David of the Old Testament was a man who experienced every emotion imaginable.

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From boldly defeating the giant Goliath to cowering in fear before his enemies so much

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so that he pretended to be insane, he danced before the Lord as the Ark of the Covenant

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was brought back to Jerusalem.

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He also found himself in the pit of despair on numerous occasions as he fled for his life

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from his enemies.

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But he came through his most difficult moments because he knew the secret of being restored.

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He shares it with us in Psalm 42, verses 5 and 11, as well as many other Psalms.

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The NIV reads, "Why my soul are you downcast?

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Why so disturbed within me?

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Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."

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No matter what circumstances we're in, no matter how we feel, setting our focus and

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hope on God changes things.

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I read a quote recently that stuck with me.

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It says, Worship will get you through the roughest times in your life because it shifts

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your focus from the problem to the problem solver.

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However the author was, he or she learned the same truth as King David.

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My guest, Patricia Hefti, has definitely learned that truth.

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Patricia is a retired homeschool parent who has also worked as a lab technician in the

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Texas A&M University Biochemistry, Biophysics Department, as well as an elementary school

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teacher at the Lighthouse International Christian Center.

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She has also served as a Christians pastor at several local churches, and she and her

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husband Roy enjoy spending time with their two grown children and granddaughter and are

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passionate about serving the Lord in whatever way he leads.

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Welcome Patricia.

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Hi, Jodie

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It's nice to be here.

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Patricia, share with us a little about how you grew up and when you first encountered

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Jesus.

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Okay, well I was raised in El Paso, so I was a desert rat.

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And we went to the Catholic Church as a family.

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And I can remember growing up, I struggled with depression.

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Most of my life, most of my life, I can remember just feeling low and guilty and shameful and

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just a lot of self-hatred.

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And when I was in first or second grade, my best friend in school, she invited me to her

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Baptist church for a hot dog supper.

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And that was a draw for me because I loved hot dogs and chips.

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So we went to the basement and had our hot dogs and chips, and then we went to the sanctuary.

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And that's where I heard the gospel for the very first time.

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I had never heard anything other than what I perceived was, God is out to get you.

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You're a sinner and you have no way to get to heaven except if you do this, this, this,

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and this.

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And I just had a fear of God, but it was the wrong kind of fear.

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And I remember going and hearing the gospel for the first time and when the pastor gave

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the altar call, I remember running up to that altar and tucking on his coat and looking

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up at him and saying, I want to be saved.

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And that was my sinner's prayer.

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I didn't pray, no one prayed with me.

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Really, they took some information from me, but nobody really prayed with me.

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That was my sinner's prayer.

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I want to be saved.

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And God took that child's heartfelt cry and he did it.

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And I remember walking down the steps of that church was Grandview Baptist Church in El

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Paso.

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And I remember walking down those steps and saying, I love everybody.

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I love the world.

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And that was, I knew my heart was changed.

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I knew something had changed.

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But when I came home, I told my parents about it, all excited.

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And they said, yeah, that's just an emotional experience.

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Your sister did the same thing a few years ago.

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You'll get over it.

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And that was it.

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And I had no idea.

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My friend, when I came back from being up at the front, she was crying in the church.

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And I didn't know why she was crying.

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I had no idea what it meant to be saved.

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I just knew I wanted it.

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I wanted God.

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I just wanted him.

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And so I just didn't know what else to do.

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So I just went on with life.

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Had no teaching.

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Years later, when you were in college, God brought someone into your life that showed

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you the next step.

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Yes.

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Tell us about that.

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How did that happen?

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Well, I was going to Texas A&M.

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I had transferred from UTEP and finishing my degree at Texas A&M.

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And I was in between semesters or years.

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And so I went back home to El Paso to work.

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And my boss was a born-again, spirit-filled Christian.

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I had no idea.

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And God got me that job.

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I knew it.

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He led me to that job because there was no reason why I should get that job.

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And I did.

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And one day he gave me some tracks, some Christian tracks.

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And he said, Patricia, would you read these and tell me which one you liked the best?

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And I read them all.

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One was a dooming, not a doom and gloom, but a Hellfire and Brimstone track.

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And this one that I really liked was a very gentle born-again.

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Here's how you get born again from the book of John.

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And I said, Rudy, I like this one.

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I really like this one a lot.

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And I said, you know, I did this.

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And finally my heart and my mind opened up and I said, I did this.

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I got saved.

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And I told him what happened years ago when I was eight or nine years old.

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And I said, that's what happened.

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Now I know what happened to me.

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And so that was the beginning of my relationship with God.

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And so he helped you start growing in your faith, didn't he?

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Yes, he did.

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How did you get connected and what did you start learning?

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And also how did that impact your family?

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Well, I started going to the church he was going to on Tuesday nights.

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And then on Sunday morning we went to the Catholic Church.

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And he would share with me all kinds of things of what he was learning and the Word of God.

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And we just fellowshiped a lot while we were working.

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And then once he told me, he said, you know, Patricia, if you're ever confused, if you

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ever don't know how to pray about something, I just asked Jesus to fill you with the Holy

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Spirit and he will.

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You can do that in your bedroom anywhere you are.

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And so I finally went to the priest of our Catholic Church, the head of our church.

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And I said, you know, I'm learning some things that I'm reading the Bible and I love it.

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But I'm learning some things that kind of contradict what's going on here at church

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and I wanted to talk to you about it.

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And we talked quite a while, but the last thing he told me was, Patricia, I'm glad

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you're searching but never leave your Catholic faith.

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And I left his office and I was so confused.

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And I went home and I just cried and I said, Lord, I don't understand.

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I know I've found something beautiful, but he's saying don't leave the Catholic faith.

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And so I, right then I said, you know, I'm confused.

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I don't know how to pray.

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So I did ask Jesus to fill me with the Holy Spirit.

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I started speaking in spirit and then I thought that can't be it.

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And so I cried.

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This can be it.

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This is so weird.

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And then my boss was also going to a home group Bible study and I was going to that

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on Friday nights.

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And so I went to the home group and I said, I want to be filled with the Holy Spirit.

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I need that.

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And so they gathered around me and prayed for me.

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And I prayed the same as I did, you know, in my room days ago.

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So, but I just went home rejoicing, praying in the spirit, singing in the spirit, just

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on cloud nine because it gave me such joy to know.

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And then I started learning what praying in the spirit was all about, that I was praying

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the perfect will of God, that I was giving thanks well, that my spirit was praying, but

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my mind is unfruitful.

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And a lot of time needed my mind to be unfruitful because my mind was messed up.

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So I was glad for that, that gift to the Holy Spirit.

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So eventually your mom and even your dad joined you at these Bible studies.

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What happened with them and how did that impact their life?

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My mom had gotten saved at a Catholic Charismatic group a few years before and I didn't even

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realize what had happened to her.

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But I knew something was different with her, but I wasn't sure what.

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Well, when I started going to that Tuesday night church service with my boss at their

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church, she finally said, I want to go with you.

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I see something in you.

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I want to go with you.

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So she would go with me.

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So my dad and my brother were at home and we'd invite them every Tuesday, do you want

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to come to Bible study?

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And they said, no, you know, and my boss told me, make sure you make it their decision.

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Just invite them, let them make the decision because the man's ego, you know, needs to

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make the decision.

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So we just invited them and that was it.

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And one Tuesday my dad looked at my brother and said, we got to go see what these girls

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are up to.

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So they came.

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They didn't have an altar call that Tuesday, which crushed me.

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I thought, oh gosh, here was a great chance for my dad and my brother to be saved.

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But they came the next Tuesday.

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They had an altar call and so they were saved and filled with the Holy Spirit.

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And we came home and my dad said, you know, I remember hearing this teaching as a kid

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and I never accepted Christ.

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And now I'm so old, but I'm asking God to grow me up quick.

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And he said, I don't see any reason why we should go back to the Catholic Church.

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We're being fed the Word of God here.

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So we quit going to the Catholic Church.

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Yeah.

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So at the end of the summer, you know, this was, you were back home with your parents

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and that end of the summer, you had to go back to school, which you didn't have any

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fellowship at school because you hadn't been connected there.

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So how did you get connected with other believers and growing your faith in college?

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Well, my boss told me before I left, he said, Patricia, here's some basic.

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Basic questions that you should ask when you're looking for a good Bible-believing church,

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you need a church that teaches the Word of God, the truth.

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And so here's some questions.

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So he gave me a list of questions that I could ask them.

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And I actually did.

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I'd call up and ask, okay, what do you believe about this?

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What do you believe?

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Do you believe in the Holy Spirit and infill the Holy Spirit, the Virgin birth, you know,

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just basic tenets of the faith?

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And I did find a good Bible-believing church.

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So I started going there.

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I had to buy the church bus because I had no vehicle.

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But it was a joy.

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It was a real joy to grow there.

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And the people really were inviting and welcoming.

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And eventually, I ended up being a chiller's pastor at that church.

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Wow.

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I mean, you were in school, studying pretty rigorous course.

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You were also ministering to children.

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And you know, your obedience in following God into children's ministry had an added

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personal benefit, didn't it?

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Tell us.

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Tell us that story.

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The main thing is being obedient to go to the church God chose for me.

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Not me choosing a church, but I was really praying, God show me where you want me.

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And so that's how the Chins Ministry started.

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But then it was a church filled with older folks and families with children, no singles

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at all.

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And I wanted to be married.

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I was looking for my husband.

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And finally, I just said, you know, Lord, if I never get married, it's okay.

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I'm good with you.

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You are enough for me.

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And at that point, when I surrendered it all, then the Lord brought my husband to that

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church, that little country church.

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And so I had also told the Lord, I don't want to do the dating business anymore.

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It's too hard on my heart.

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And so I said, you know, unless you show me, this is my future husband, I am not going

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out with anyone.

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You're going to have to show me.

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And the Lord did.

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He showed me that that was my husband to be before we ever went out on a date.

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I love it because when you get serious with God, he gets serious with you and he'll answer

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you in the way you need it so that you know it's him.

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And you got to know each other because he started helping in children's ministry.

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He drove the bus, the church bus that I had ridden years ago.

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And we worked together in church.

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We went, we did a lot of things together with the church.

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And but like I said, I, I, before I knew that that was him, I just, you know, hands off

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until God really showed me this is, this is him.

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You mentioned earlier, Patricia, that you struggled with depression and that continued

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even after you put your faith in Jesus and began growing in the Lord.

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You even had suicidal thoughts from time to time.

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When and how did you find freedom from that?

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I think that, you know, depression plagues a lot of people and actually after COVID,

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a lot more people have suffered.

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Yes.

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And then there was a lot of isolation and depression.

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You know, how did the Lord lead you in getting rid of depression?

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Well, it was a process, Jody.

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It was a, it was a process of obeying God in what he told me to do.

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And I really, I really encourage everyone out there that struggles with depression,

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with suicidal thoughts, with anxiety to pray to the Lord and asking for a strategy.

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I can just tell you what the strategy he gave me.

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And he will give other people other strategies to combat that because in the, at the end

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of the day, depression is really, what he shared with me was, depression is just an adult temper

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tantrum.

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I am low and I am feeling bad because things are not going the way I think they should.

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And I'm not to be Lord of my life.

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He is to be Lord of my life.

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So I know that part of the depression that I suffered was part of a generational thing

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because there are several members of my family that have struggled with depression and mental

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illness.

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And so I just, the Lord, you know, I wanted to glorify God and I knew depression was not

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glorifying Him.

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And so I can only describe depression for me as a, as a pit, a dark pit.

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And I stayed there for years, so long that I didn't know I could feel any other way.

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I had no idea I could feel any different.

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But when God started showing me the joy, you know, it says in God's presence is fullness

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of joy.

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And at His right hand, there are pleasures forevermore.

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And so I started getting little tastes of that joy and thinking, hmm, that's different.

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I haven't felt like that before.

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And then the depression would just take me down that spiral, that spiral down, down,

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down to the bottom of the pit.

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But the Lord showed me, He said, I am worthy of your praise.

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24 hours a day, seven days a week.

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It doesn't matter how you feel.

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I am worthy of your praise.

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So if you will praise me, you know, the word says, if Jesus will be lifted up, He will

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draw all men to Himself.

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And as I, as you lift Jesus up, He lifts you up to where He is.

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And you know, the Bible says too that God inhabits the praises of His people.

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And so as I would praise, and there were, and when I first started this, I would just

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praise in an empty house where I was and tears streaming down my face, feeling low as a,

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as a grasshopper, just feeling like nothing, like, like I, it was not worth anything.

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And as I would praise, He would lift me out of that pit.

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And if I would just obey Him in that and praise Him, no matter how I felt.

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And as I did, He would lift me out of that pit and I'd be out in the sunshine thinking,

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wow, I didn't know I could have this kind of joy.

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And then the, the lying thoughts would come again and that spiral will happen again down,

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down, down to the pit.

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And I'd say, okay, I might stay there two or three weeks.

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I might stay there two months.

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I might stay there half a year.

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I didn't realize I didn't have to be that way anymore.

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But as I would praise, I would get back out of that pit.

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And every time it just seemed like I went a little less low, a little less dark, a little

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less time in the pit.

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And it was just a process of obedience, obeying Him and knowing He is worthy of my praise.

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And I want to glorify Him and if I'm going to glorify Him, I need to walk in joy and

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peace so that, you know, the world can walk in depression.

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They have no hope.

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I have hope.

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Jesus is my hope.

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And so I can walk in Him and have that peace and joy and be a light and a witness.

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And so, and now I can talk about it like it's somebody else because I haven't been there

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in so long and at times when those things try to, you know, lying thoughts can be everybody

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at different times.

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Yeah, they do.

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But we have to know that they were to take those thoughts captive to the obedience of

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Christ.

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And for me, that meant praise Him.

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Praise Him because He's worthy.

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And as I did, then if that ever tries to get back on me, I just praise Him again and He

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lifts me back up.

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So it's just, I can't say enough about it because that was my lifeline.

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I really think that if I had not found the Lord, if He had not found me and changed me,

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I could have been in a sane asylum.

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I could have been on medications and, or I could be dead because those suicidal thoughts

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came for no reason.

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I had a good home, a good family, I had a good husband, I had, you know, growing up I had

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a good home.

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So there was no reason for it.

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It was the enemy's attack on my mind and my heart.

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And he always attacks our identity.

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He always attacks who we are.

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And when I finally found out who I was in Christ, I thought, no, I don't have to be that.

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I am a child of God.

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I am His workmanship created in Christ Jesus unto good works that He's already ordained

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for me to walk in.

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So I can walk in freedom and in fullness.

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Amen.

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So after you got married, you tried to start a family.

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And in the process, you experienced a miracle.

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Tell us what happened.

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I had, I had a surgery scheduled for a month out for endometriosis.

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I had endometriosis really bad.

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Lots of pain, lots of suffering with that.

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And my husband and I were trying to get pregnant and nothing was happening.

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So, but I needed to get that, that pain fixed.

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And so I went to my home group right after I scheduled the surgery.

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I said, I've got a surgery scheduled in a month.

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They prayed for me, so they laid hands on me and prayed for me.

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And so we went on and the, the Wednesday, the Monday before the surgery, they, the doctor

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said, you still haven't started your cycle.

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We can't operate on you if we have any suspects that we, that you're pregnant.

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So I had to go in for a pregnancy test.

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And when I went in for the pregnancy test, they came out and said, we can't operate on

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you, you're pregnant.

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So I mean, it was just the most beautiful thing because it was so unexpected, although we

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had been praying, but it was, why do we, why are we surprised when God answers?

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I don't know.

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But I went down the highway just crying and laughing and praising God and trying to find

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my husband who was working in the house and doing remodeling work and let him know that,

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that we were going to have a baby.

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So it was beautiful.

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And that, that, that healed my injury, endometriosis.

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I didn't have trouble getting pregnant again to have my second daughter.

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So he really just completely took all that sickness away and breast-blessed us with a

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baby.

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So it was very exciting.

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And his favor was on you too because while you were pregnant, you were interviewing

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for a job.

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And you told them you were pregnant.

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So what happened there?

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I was pregnant and I had my interview.

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And at the interview I said, by the way, I just want to let you know I'm pregnant and

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I'm going to be leaving in April when I have the baby because I want to be a stay at home

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mom.

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And they were good with it and said, that's fine.

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No problem at all.

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So I was, I was free to come in.

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That job was such a joy, such a joy.

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It paid for all the expenses of having our, our daughter.

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So yeah, it was exciting.

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And you and your husband agreed that you wanted to homeschool your children, not for everybody,

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but it definitely was a call of God on for you, share how you prepared yourself and just

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the whole experience.

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Well, I had my bachelor's in microbiology and then we, in 1990, nothing was happening

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in the baby department.

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But I said, okay, let me go back to school because eventually we want to have children.

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And so we, we feel like we ought to homeschool.

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It was just something God put in our hearts.

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And I would say to anybody that's contemplating homeschooling to pray, really pray and ask

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God if this is right for you, because it's not right for every family, but it was right

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for us.

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So I went back to get my master's in education and my teaching certificates so that if they

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ever changed the laws in Texas, I would have my credentials and I could just, you know,

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teach my children at home.

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So it was a real great experience homeschooling them.

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We got to be a family all the time.

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We didn't have to, you know, cart them off for the best hours of their day.

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We had them around us.

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And so we were able to share life with them.

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They were able to learn how to deal with cattle, horses, dogs.

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We had, we were able to follow their interests.

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It was just a very nice time of being a family together where we could vacation when we were

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able to and not have to be on a strict schedule.

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So, and my daughters both prayed to receive Jesus.

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And in fact, my older daughter witnessed to my younger daughter, and that's how she accepted

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Christ and they were filled with the spirit.

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And so we did church together.

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We served at the churches together as a family.

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Yeah, you really were able to disciple them through the education and through your church

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activities.

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So you really were able to ground them in their faith.

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And after your daughters graduated from high school, God led you to a new direction and

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taught you to stand in the face of persecution, which isn't something that we like to think

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about too much.

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But as the world gets darker and the light gets lighter, there's going to be more, more

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of that.

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Yes.

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So what did he lead you to do?

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And how did you withstand what you experienced?

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We had an abortion facility, a Planned Parenthood facility in our community that was doing abortions

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right there at the facility.

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4,000 children lost their lives at that facility during the years it was open.

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And I started praying at the abortion facility when I found out, I always wondered why these

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people were standing outside the abortion facility.

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And I finally realized it was 40 days for life vigils.

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They were standing vigil praying for the babies, praying for the moms, extending the love of

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God to the moms that were going in and praying that they would change their minds and give

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their babies a chance at life.

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And so I heard about that and I thought, ooh, I'd love to do that.

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So I went down and I prayed three or four times.

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And then the facility closed.

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It closed down right after that.

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And I thought, hmm, okay.

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So it was...

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Prayer works.

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Prayer works.

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And about six years later, in 2018, actually, the Lord started stirring in my heart.

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And he said, yes, the abortion facility is closed.

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Yes, it is now the headquarters of 40 Days for Life International.

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Life has come to that facility now instead of darkness.

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And it's a beautiful thing, a beautiful story.

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If anyone's seen the movie unplanned, that's our story with Abby Johnson.

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And so...

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But he said...

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He told me, he said, there are people driving the streets of Bryant College Station and

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they are deciding whether to go to Houston or Austin or Dallas or Beaumont and have an

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abortion.

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They've got unplanned pregnancies that they are making decisions and they're driving down

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your streets.

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They need to know there's a choice.

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There's another way to do this besides having an abortion.

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And he said also, there are people that have had abortions that are driving the streets

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of Bryant College Station that are hurting, they are broken, they're repentant, but they

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don't know how to receive forgiveness from Christ, which there is forgiveness for that

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just like there is for anything else.

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And then he also said, we need to stand for life.

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We need to let people know that I am a God of life.

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And so he led me to lead a 40 Days for Life vigil in 2019 and in 2020.

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In the fall, during the football season, we're big football people here at A&M.

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And so he led me to do their vigils right in front of Texas A&M.

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Thousands of cars go by every day.

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And standing with a sign, I had one sign that was Jeremiah 2911 and another sign that said,

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choose life.

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God says, I've said before you life and death, blessing and cursing, therefore choose life

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that you and your descendants may live.

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And so we just had a simple sign, choose life.

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We had another one that said, smile, your mom chose life.

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And so we had scripture signs, we had regular signs, and it was amazing the reactions we

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got.

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00:30:03,080 --> 00:30:04,360
We got a lot of thumbs up.

474
00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:05,680
Thank you for what you're doing.

475
00:30:05,680 --> 00:30:10,200
We got people that came by and were so grateful that we were out there standing for these

476
00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:11,200
babies.

477
00:30:11,200 --> 00:30:19,120
And we had a lot of people that were shouting obscenities at us and calling us name after

478
00:30:19,120 --> 00:30:24,480
name after name and coming up on the sidewalk and talking to us and telling us how wrong

479
00:30:24,480 --> 00:30:35,440
we were and having drinks thrown at us and just very vile and ugly things.

480
00:30:35,440 --> 00:30:41,920
And the presence of God on that sidewalk was incredible.

481
00:30:41,920 --> 00:30:49,400
And the love that he put in our hearts for those people that were yelling at us and gesturing

482
00:30:49,400 --> 00:30:53,440
to us and everything, there was so much love.

483
00:30:53,440 --> 00:30:57,560
All we could do was just smile and pray for them.

484
00:30:57,560 --> 00:30:59,440
We just prayed and prayed and prayed.

485
00:30:59,440 --> 00:31:05,400
They had no idea we were praying for them because we knew they were hurting in some way.

486
00:31:05,400 --> 00:31:16,800
And so, and then after the 2020 vigil, the Lord, you know, I prayed in 2019 and he said,

487
00:31:16,800 --> 00:31:17,800
do the vigil.

488
00:31:17,800 --> 00:31:20,240
I prayed in 2020, he said, do the vigil.

489
00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:22,400
But in 2021, God shut it off.

490
00:31:22,400 --> 00:31:24,720
He said, no, don't do it.

491
00:31:24,720 --> 00:31:30,600
And I had no idea that I was going to need to care for my dad whose health was failing.

492
00:31:30,600 --> 00:31:37,160
And so I was so grateful that God, you know, he's so good to show us exactly what he wants

493
00:31:37,160 --> 00:31:38,480
from us.

494
00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:42,800
And if we will just be obedient, you know, he knows the future.

495
00:31:42,800 --> 00:31:43,800
We don't.

496
00:31:43,800 --> 00:31:48,760
But if we'll just follow him, he knows exactly where we need to be, what we need to do, when

497
00:31:48,760 --> 00:31:50,240
and how.

498
00:31:50,240 --> 00:31:52,320
And he makes it all work.

499
00:31:52,320 --> 00:31:55,080
Yeah, he's not a harsh taskmaster, is he?

500
00:31:55,080 --> 00:31:59,080
No, no, he's gracious and kind and loving and good.

501
00:31:59,080 --> 00:32:00,080
He loves us.

502
00:32:00,080 --> 00:32:01,080
Yes, he loves us.

503
00:32:01,080 --> 00:32:02,640
He loves our families.

504
00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:08,520
And he knows where we fit in the whole scheme of his plan.

505
00:32:08,520 --> 00:32:13,280
And so I didn't do the vigil in 2021.

506
00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:20,120
And then in 2022, when Real Versus Way was reversed, there was a big pro-abortion rally

507
00:32:20,120 --> 00:32:23,240
at the Capitol in Austin.

508
00:32:23,240 --> 00:32:29,600
And I really sense the Lord said, you need to go and join the counter-protests that is

509
00:32:29,600 --> 00:32:32,160
going on.

510
00:32:32,160 --> 00:32:36,800
And I went with shaking knees, but I went.

511
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I didn't know what to expect.

512
00:32:39,520 --> 00:32:53,800
But I've never come across such angry, livid, hateful persecution as I did that day.

513
00:32:53,800 --> 00:32:59,720
And standing there with them yelling at us in our faces, but just standing there and

514
00:32:59,720 --> 00:33:04,080
praying for them and asking God to have mercy on them, please have mercy on them.

515
00:33:04,080 --> 00:33:07,800
They don't know what they're doing.

516
00:33:07,800 --> 00:33:11,800
And it was like Daniel and Lion's Den.

517
00:33:11,800 --> 00:33:16,960
It was like standing before the lions and saying, my God is able to keep me.

518
00:33:16,960 --> 00:33:19,080
And my heart was in my throat.

519
00:33:19,080 --> 00:33:21,160
It was pounding.

520
00:33:21,160 --> 00:33:22,920
But my spirit was at peace.

521
00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:24,280
I knew I was fine.

522
00:33:24,280 --> 00:33:26,440
I knew I was protected.

523
00:33:26,440 --> 00:33:34,200
But I really felt like the Lord wanted me to know how to stand in that kind of an environment

524
00:33:34,200 --> 00:33:39,960
in the peace of God, in the presence of God, and just stand and pray for someone that hates

525
00:33:39,960 --> 00:33:42,440
me so much.

526
00:33:42,440 --> 00:33:43,560
It was incredible.

527
00:33:43,560 --> 00:33:45,560
I've never experienced anything like that.

528
00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:48,560
But I know that I know he led me there.

529
00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,560
And he showed me when to go and he showed me when to leave.

530
00:33:51,560 --> 00:33:57,520
And all the time you are involved in your pro-life assignment from the Lord, God had another

531
00:33:57,520 --> 00:34:02,000
little surprise assignment for you that you were working on in the background.

532
00:34:02,000 --> 00:34:06,840
Share about that because it was completely different from everything else you've done.

533
00:34:06,840 --> 00:34:15,440
In 2015, I had an incident happen.

534
00:34:15,440 --> 00:34:23,120
The ministry that we go to, which is our church's SOS ministries in Bryan, and we had all the

535
00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:28,440
SOS family out to our ranch for a picnic for 4th of July.

536
00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:33,360
And some children, during that picnic, they brought me an injured bird that they had found.

537
00:34:33,360 --> 00:34:37,880
They had rescued it from being beat up by a bluejay.

538
00:34:37,880 --> 00:34:41,800
And they had rescued it and they gave it to me and said, Miss Patricia, could you please

539
00:34:41,800 --> 00:34:43,200
help this bird?

540
00:34:43,200 --> 00:34:45,920
I'll do what I can.

541
00:34:45,920 --> 00:34:55,280
But the rescue of that little bird, his restoration to health, he actually was a nestling so he

542
00:34:55,280 --> 00:34:58,760
didn't even have his feathers grown in where he could fly away.

543
00:34:58,760 --> 00:35:00,560
He was basically...

544
00:35:00,560 --> 00:35:03,400
Really defenseless, right?

545
00:35:03,400 --> 00:35:04,400
Yeah.

546
00:35:04,400 --> 00:35:07,560
Just defenseless, defenseless, yeah.

547
00:35:07,560 --> 00:35:12,600
And through the process of feeding him and caring for him, he grew in his feathers.

548
00:35:12,600 --> 00:35:17,080
He was restored to health and he finally flew away.

549
00:35:17,080 --> 00:35:23,600
So he was actually released back into the wild where he belonged.

550
00:35:23,600 --> 00:35:31,000
And so that story of that bird, I was sharing it with my cousin who likes to write.

551
00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:34,760
And she said, Patricia, you need to write a children's book.

552
00:35:34,760 --> 00:35:37,040
And I thought, no, no, no, you're the writer.

553
00:35:37,040 --> 00:35:39,200
You need to write this book.

554
00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:41,120
She said, no, no, you need to write it.

555
00:35:41,120 --> 00:35:42,720
You experience it, you need to write it.

556
00:35:42,720 --> 00:35:50,000
She said, it sounds a lot like the mission of SOS Ministries, which God told Mr. JJ

557
00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:57,960
Ramirez, the founder, that his mission was to rescue, restore, and release the hurting

558
00:35:57,960 --> 00:36:06,000
from drug-infested dysfunctional families, violence, and despair.

559
00:36:06,000 --> 00:36:08,720
And so that's what we do at SOS all the time.

560
00:36:08,720 --> 00:36:12,320
We see people come in one way and leave another way.

561
00:36:12,320 --> 00:36:13,620
It's beautiful.

562
00:36:13,620 --> 00:36:18,160
So the Lord really put it on my heart.

563
00:36:18,160 --> 00:36:19,800
I want you to write this book.

564
00:36:19,800 --> 00:36:27,720
And the book was to be a gift for Mr. JJ for his 30th anniversary of being in ministry.

565
00:36:27,720 --> 00:36:30,760
And so I started three years earlier.

566
00:36:30,760 --> 00:36:40,160
And in 2023, I was able to present that book to him as a gift for all those years of 24-7,

567
00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:42,760
working with people to rescue them.

568
00:36:42,760 --> 00:36:51,640
You know, it's not, it's not, it's a very messy thing to rescue, to restore, and to

569
00:36:51,640 --> 00:36:52,640
release.

570
00:36:52,640 --> 00:36:53,640
It's messy.

571
00:36:53,640 --> 00:36:58,400
You get into people's lives, and there's a lot of ins and outs of it.

572
00:36:58,400 --> 00:37:03,080
It takes you farther than you want to go and cost you more than you want to pay.

573
00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:06,440
But Jesus gives us life and that more abundantly.

574
00:37:06,440 --> 00:37:13,800
And so after working on that book for three years, the illustrator he brought had actually

575
00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:17,640
been in our man's home and had graduated from our man's home.

576
00:37:17,640 --> 00:37:19,920
And he's a beautiful illustrator.

577
00:37:19,920 --> 00:37:24,960
And he just, the book, it looks exactly the way the Lord showed it to me in my heart,

578
00:37:24,960 --> 00:37:25,960
in my mind.

579
00:37:25,960 --> 00:37:26,960
Exactly.

580
00:37:26,960 --> 00:37:27,960
Exactly.

581
00:37:27,960 --> 00:37:36,840
And I can't thank them, should press enough for working with me to get it finished for

582
00:37:36,840 --> 00:37:44,520
the anniversary, to have it look the way it does, because the Lord was very specific.

583
00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:47,000
And so I wanted to obey him in that.

584
00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:52,000
And the beautiful thing is all the proceeds for the book, all the prophets go back to

585
00:37:52,000 --> 00:37:57,840
SOS Ministries so they can continue to rescue, restore, and release, just like the Good Samaritan

586
00:37:57,840 --> 00:37:58,840
story.

587
00:37:58,840 --> 00:37:59,840
It's been exciting.

588
00:37:59,840 --> 00:38:04,880
Yeah, and we'll have a link in our show notes if anyone wants to check it out online so

589
00:38:04,880 --> 00:38:08,000
they could get it from you because it's not available on Amazon, is it?

590
00:38:08,000 --> 00:38:09,000
Yes, it is.

591
00:38:09,000 --> 00:38:10,000
It actually is.

592
00:38:10,000 --> 00:38:11,000
Oh, it is.

593
00:38:11,000 --> 00:38:13,840
You can get it from Redemption Press, many different places.

594
00:38:13,840 --> 00:38:14,840
Tell us the name.

595
00:38:14,840 --> 00:38:20,280
It's called J's Tale, J-A-Y-A-Pasphia's Tale, T-A-L-E.

596
00:38:20,280 --> 00:38:24,240
It's funny because Mr. JJ, people that know him, have been known him for a long time,

597
00:38:24,240 --> 00:38:25,240
they call him J.

598
00:38:25,240 --> 00:38:26,240
Okay.

599
00:38:26,240 --> 00:38:30,120
And the children named the bird J from the very beginning.

600
00:38:30,120 --> 00:38:32,840
They said, we need to call him J. Okay, call him J.

601
00:38:32,840 --> 00:38:35,360
It's a fun way that God works, you know?

602
00:38:35,360 --> 00:38:39,960
He works in mysterious ways, but when you look back at what he's done, it's amazing,

603
00:38:39,960 --> 00:38:40,960
isn't it?

604
00:38:40,960 --> 00:38:41,960
It is.

605
00:38:41,960 --> 00:38:42,960
It is.

606
00:38:42,960 --> 00:38:43,960
Yeah.

607
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:48,560
Well, Patricia, as you look back over your life and how God's led you, what life lesson

608
00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:50,880
do you want to pass on to others?

609
00:38:50,880 --> 00:38:54,920
I think the main thing is obedience.

610
00:38:54,920 --> 00:39:01,040
To the Holy Spirit, obedience to the Word of God, to His prompting in your heart, and

611
00:39:01,040 --> 00:39:06,480
to know that when you accept Jesus as your Lord and Savior, you are His sheep.

612
00:39:06,480 --> 00:39:11,200
And the Bible says, His sheep hear His voice and they follow Him.

613
00:39:11,200 --> 00:39:17,280
And so as I follow the Lord, He has taken me so many different places that I can't even

614
00:39:17,280 --> 00:39:18,280
describe.

615
00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:20,600
He's taken me to Mexico to do mission work.

616
00:39:20,600 --> 00:39:26,800
He's taken me many, many different places through many, many different assignments.

617
00:39:26,800 --> 00:39:28,280
And it's all been exciting.

618
00:39:28,280 --> 00:39:32,440
It hasn't been easy a lot of times, but He didn't say it was going to be easy.

619
00:39:32,440 --> 00:39:37,360
It was going to be fulfilling and it was going to bring Him glory.

620
00:39:37,360 --> 00:39:44,120
And so obedience, really, to have an ear tuned to the Lord, Father, what do you want me to

621
00:39:44,120 --> 00:39:45,680
do?

622
00:39:45,680 --> 00:39:48,880
What do you say about this situation, that situation?

623
00:39:48,880 --> 00:39:53,400
What do you say about this depression or this anxiety I'm experiencing?

624
00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:55,360
What do you say I need to do?

625
00:39:55,360 --> 00:39:58,720
What is the strategy that you give me to combat this?

626
00:39:58,720 --> 00:40:00,920
I want to glorify you.

627
00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:02,440
How can I do that?

628
00:40:02,440 --> 00:40:04,760
He will answer you.

629
00:40:04,760 --> 00:40:08,880
And one of my favorite verses is Jeremiah 33.:3

630
00:40:08,880 --> 00:40:09,880
3.

631
00:40:09,880 --> 00:40:15,480
Call unto me and I will answer you and show you great and mighty things that you don't

632
00:40:15,480 --> 00:40:16,720
know.

633
00:40:16,720 --> 00:40:20,360
And I don't know how many times I've stood in my living room or in my bedroom or whatever

634
00:40:20,360 --> 00:40:23,720
and said, Father, there's a lot I don't know.

635
00:40:23,720 --> 00:40:27,040
But I'm calling on you and I'm asking you to answer.

636
00:40:27,040 --> 00:40:31,400
And He does answer every time He answers.

637
00:40:31,400 --> 00:40:37,240
As we close, Patricia, would you share about a woman of the Bible whose story has inspired

638
00:40:37,240 --> 00:40:39,040
and encouraged or taught you something?

639
00:40:39,040 --> 00:40:44,520
You know, I had never thought about that until you asked me to.

640
00:40:44,520 --> 00:40:47,480
But looking at everything, Mary.

641
00:40:47,480 --> 00:40:57,160
And that's Mary because she, you know, the angel came to her and gave her this news and

642
00:40:57,160 --> 00:41:02,160
she's a teenager and she's going to carry the Son of God.

643
00:41:02,160 --> 00:41:05,720
And that could be, you know, it's got to be scary.

644
00:41:05,720 --> 00:41:09,440
But she didn't, she didn't balk at it.

645
00:41:09,440 --> 00:41:10,440
She didn't anything.

646
00:41:10,440 --> 00:41:15,680
And just one clarifying question, how can this be since I do not know a man?

647
00:41:15,680 --> 00:41:18,680
She had just asked for clarification.

648
00:41:18,680 --> 00:41:25,520
And when the angel had given her clarification, she said, be it unto me according to your will.

649
00:41:25,520 --> 00:41:27,720
Be it unto me as you have said.

650
00:41:27,720 --> 00:41:31,800
You know, she just said, okay, yes, yes, Lord.

651
00:41:31,800 --> 00:41:38,000
The leader of our women's ministry at SOS, she always says the word no and the word Lord

652
00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:40,960
do not belong in the same sentence.

653
00:41:40,960 --> 00:41:43,200
We don't say no, Lord.

654
00:41:43,200 --> 00:41:45,120
It's always yes, Lord.

655
00:41:45,120 --> 00:41:46,120
Yes, Lord.

656
00:41:46,120 --> 00:41:48,520
If He's our Lord, we say yes.

657
00:41:48,520 --> 00:41:49,600
And that's what Mary did.

658
00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:51,240
She said yes.

659
00:41:51,240 --> 00:41:53,400
And look what it took her.

660
00:41:53,400 --> 00:41:55,720
So saying yes is very powerful.

661
00:41:55,720 --> 00:42:02,920
Well, you know, as I think about your life, Patricia, reminds me of Galatians 5, 13, which

662
00:42:02,920 --> 00:42:07,720
the new living translation reads, for you've been called to live in freedom.

663
00:42:07,720 --> 00:42:12,240
My brothers and sisters, don't use your freedom to satisfy your sinful nature.

664
00:42:12,240 --> 00:42:17,680
Instead, use your freedom to serve others in love.

665
00:42:17,680 --> 00:42:23,200
Patricia was set free from sin first when she came to Christ, then she was set free

666
00:42:23,200 --> 00:42:25,080
from depression.

667
00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:30,640
And in her freedom, she's followed the Lord in serving others in many different ways.

668
00:42:30,640 --> 00:42:33,280
Her direction changed over time.

669
00:42:33,280 --> 00:42:37,680
She's been free to step into all God has had for her to do.

670
00:42:37,680 --> 00:42:41,200
You dear friend, have that freedom too if you've put your faith in Christ and He is

671
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:42,280
your Lord.

672
00:42:42,280 --> 00:42:46,320
So when you feel a nudge from God, step out in faith.

673
00:42:46,320 --> 00:42:49,400
I took a step in faith when I started this podcast.

674
00:42:49,400 --> 00:42:53,360
And now you're hearing encouraging stories that are building your faith.

675
00:42:53,360 --> 00:42:56,360
So step out and see what God will do through you.

676
00:42:56,360 --> 00:42:59,760
Patricia, would you take a moment and pray for our listeners?

677
00:42:59,760 --> 00:43:00,760
Absolutely.

678
00:43:00,760 --> 00:43:02,880
Father God, we love you so much.

679
00:43:02,880 --> 00:43:04,920
You are high and lifted up.

680
00:43:04,920 --> 00:43:07,600
You are most holy God.

681
00:43:07,600 --> 00:43:10,320
We love you and we trust you with our lives, Father.

682
00:43:10,320 --> 00:43:13,480
And I pray for every woman that's listening right now.

683
00:43:13,480 --> 00:43:20,360
I pray for every woman that is dealing with depression, with suicidal thoughts, with anxiety,

684
00:43:20,360 --> 00:43:22,680
with mental illness of any kind, Father.

685
00:43:22,680 --> 00:43:28,560
Father, you said in your word that you are the good shepherd and you restore our souls.

686
00:43:28,560 --> 00:43:32,720
And so I'm asking you for restoration of their souls right now, Father.

687
00:43:32,720 --> 00:43:37,000
I'm asking you to restore them like you did me and more, Father.

688
00:43:37,000 --> 00:43:38,680
You are no respecter person.

689
00:43:38,680 --> 00:43:40,200
You love us all.

690
00:43:40,200 --> 00:43:44,520
And so I just ask in the name of Jesus that you would restore their souls, that you would

691
00:43:44,520 --> 00:43:50,680
give them strategy to come against the wilds and schemes of the enemy.

692
00:43:50,680 --> 00:43:59,280
And I come against the plans and the attacks of the enemy upon them in the name of Jesus.

693
00:43:59,280 --> 00:44:02,480
And I say, no, you are defeated.

694
00:44:02,480 --> 00:44:06,840
The cross of Jesus and the blood of Jesus is our victory.

695
00:44:06,840 --> 00:44:09,640
And I thank you, Father God, that they will walk in victory.

696
00:44:09,640 --> 00:44:12,960
I speak freedom to every woman listening right now.

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00:44:12,960 --> 00:44:19,600
I speak freedom of spirit, soul, and body, their finances, their relationships, freedom

698
00:44:19,600 --> 00:44:22,280
in every area of life, Father.

699
00:44:22,280 --> 00:44:26,560
And I ask in the name of Jesus that as they walk in that freedom that you would get all

700
00:44:26,560 --> 00:44:31,480
the praise and glory and honor for the beautiful things you will do through them, Father, because

701
00:44:31,480 --> 00:44:35,680
you've already planned those beautiful things that they're to do.

702
00:44:35,680 --> 00:44:40,720
And so I ask that you give them the freedom so that they can walk in the inheritance that

703
00:44:40,720 --> 00:44:42,440
you have for them.

704
00:44:42,440 --> 00:44:44,960
And I bless them in the name of Jesus.

705
00:44:44,960 --> 00:44:45,960
Amen.

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00:44:45,960 --> 00:44:47,960
Well, thank you for tuning in.

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Check out our show notes at hergodstory.org for scriptures and other information we talked

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about.

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And remember to get your free six-week devotional on Women of the Bible.

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We'd also love to pray with you on our 24-7 prayer and text line.

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So give us a call or text anytime at 855-459-CARE or email us at prayer at somebodycares.org.

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And now dear friends, I leave you with a blessing adapted from Psalm 90 verse 17.

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May the favor of the Lord our God rest on you, establishing the work of your hands.

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Her God Story is a ministry of Somebody Cares America and International.

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To find out more about or support the ministry, go to somebodycares.org.